A song leader vocalist Jason of band Lifehouse for his father, who left his family by choice. I'm thinking: how do men do it? How do the pro-create something so permanent, only not to cherish its worth? How do they leave the people they have made their life? How do they decide on that one moment, and tell themselves that it is okay to leave?

Because it's never alright to just walk away breaking hearts.

So if God is somewhere, anywhere, existent, help me out here. Help me to stop riddling myself insane. Help me to believe. Help me to iron my own stories right. Help me to understand the gravity of reasons. Help me to be strong. Help me to hold on to faith, no matter how blind it is.

Lifehouse - Blind

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as you turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this why
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

Times like these, I thank God for my awesome Jerome. He's really this superhuman, that's juggling everything so well, from council work to school to his band commitments to his family to me. I guess I really couldn't ask for more. It's been trying, but I'm glad that for once I can boldly say, that this relationship with Jerome is something I can proudly call mine.