Couldn't even sleep well.
Toss and turn, toss and turn, till finally it's 8am and I'm up.
Yuying's got back her results, she's in Canada.
9 fucking points please.

Someone give me guts.
I daren't get my feet outta the house.
I'm tensed to the core please.
Lord be with me.
This is it, I'm setting off for school now.
Fucking belt's tight, mine's cut. Thanks June.
Need to inform Mum, Nique, Kayson, Drea, Ann, Jana, Jeff, etc.
Thank you, to all those who prayed for me and wished me luck.
Love~

She dragged me to following her to the old folks' home.
I feel some sort of, charitable? (in a way or another)
Mum pours cold water all the time about me never working hard.
Dressed okay today; smart casual, as always.
Ate corn pie. Goodness. Yummy.

Tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow;
This nervousness is taking over me and I have no intentions on coming home with a smile on my face tomorrow.
Sucha nervous wreck now I am.
Mum was like bugging me to let her tag along.
Puhleese, like no way.
I'm not gonna let her see me cry, be it happy or sad.
All the luck in the world please.

Alrighty.
I toss and turn in bed in the wee hours of the morning,
my eyes wouldn't shut,
am coughing as if my lung's gonna tear apart,
my work's unfinished and never ending,
someone please give me her now.

Bottom line : I miss you,
so much please.

>.<

She's not been feeling too well, kept puking whatever that went into her tummy.
Poor girl.
And her mother gives her more problems.
Like give her a break please.
Will personally bring her to the doc's,
if she doesn't feel any better.
Take good care of yourself kayys?
Love love dear.

Just For Ma ButchBitch

MB demands some recognition now
So here I am, blogging.
She's 1½st in my life (she insists)
Thank you Ma Butch Bitch, for being here,
When I'm terribly down without both my babies.
Love you to bits!

I miss my baby, both babies
Baby and Her
I'm love sick I think.
Someone help.

Let That Be Enough

I wish I had what I need
To be on my own
'Cause I feel so defeated
And I'm feeling alone

And it all seems so helpless
And I have no plans
I'm a plane in the sunset
With nowhere to land

And all I see
It could never make me happy And all my sand castles
Spend their time collapsing

Let me know that You hear me
Let me know Your touch
Let me know that You love me
Let that be enough

It's my birthday tomorrow
No one here could now
I was born this Thursday
22 years ago

And I feel stuck
Watching history repeating
Yeah, who am I?
Just a kid who knows he's needy

Let me know that You hear me
Let me know Your touch
Let me know that You love me
And let that be enough

Fuck you fuck you Fuck you fuck you Fuck you fuck you Fuck you fuck you Fuck you fuck you Fuck you fuck you Fuck you fuck you Fuck you fuck you Fuck you fuck you Fuck you fuck you Fuck you fuck you Fuck you fuck you Fuck you fuck you Fuck you fuck you Fuck you fuck you Fuck you fuck you Fuck you fuck you Fuck you fuck you Fuck you fuck you Fuck you fuck you Fuck you fuck you Fuck you fuck you Fuck you fuck you Fuck you fuck you Fuck you fuck you Fuck you fuck you Fuck you fuck you Fuck you fuck you Fuck you fuck you Fuck you fuck you Fuck you fuck you Fuck you fuck you Fuck you fuck you Fuck you fuck you Fuck you fuck you Fuck you fuck you,

Mum.

Not Ready For Goodbye

Sittin' here starin' at the wall
Another lonely tear falls
I'm tryin' to write you this song
But I can hardly see the page at all

'Cause it's breaking my heart
When I look in your eyes
And I don't see me anymore
Oh, and you're all I'm living for

Baby, tell me that you still believe
That you still love me
The way I love you
If you take your love away from me
You know I would die
'Cause I'm not ready for goodbye

Baby, please pick up the phone
Tell me I'm crazy, I got it all wrong
I don't know what I'm gonna do
I don't know how to live without you

You are the first song
My heart ever heard
And baby, I believed every word
You are my heart, my soul, my world

Baby, tell me that you still believe
That you still love me
The way I love you
If you take your love away from me
You know I would die
'Cause I'm not ready for goodbye

Every breath that I take, every beat of my heart
You know it's all for you
I wanna hold you, I wanna love you
Forever and always

Baby, tell me that you still believe
That you still love me
The way I love you
If you take your love away from me
You know I would die
'Cause I'm not ready for

Baby, tell me that you still believe
That you still love me
The way I love you
If you take your love away from me I know I would die
'Cause I'm not ready for goodbye, goodbye, goodbye, goodbye

Everytime

Notice me
Take my hand
Why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?

Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry

At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby

After all...