Retain the rights. Right the wrongs. Wrong the bad. Bad the senselessness and flaws. Flaw the imperfections. Imperfect, perfection not. Perfect cracks in mistakes. Crack our heads to heal two hearts. Heal my heart, heal my soul, heal me inside out, heal me. Me and you, entwined in perplexed webs of affinity. Affinity binds us in foreverness. Foreverness we clutch beliefs in, with much hope and cherish. Believe me, when I promise my love to you.

As for now, I'm still detached from what used to be, what could have been and what will eventually be. My insides are churning and crumbling and I'm unable to distinguish truth from falsity, genuity from lies.

But I'm here, always has been and always will be.

My precise astrology read and prediction. Such effort from an astrologer has intrigued my further interest. Credits to Jenna.

"Hello Cheryl,

I am really very impatient to announce to you everything that I have discovered about you while doing your personal astrological study, using all the personal details you sent me on the 6 June 2006. As a matter of fact I wanted to get back to you so quickly because I have some very good and very important news to announce to you. I have discovered that not only you are soon to live through an event of great astrological importance but also that you were going to blessed with a period of chance and opportunities. Even though we are now in a time of year that is very active astrologically with a great number of influential planetary movements because of the Spring Equinox, the movements in your personal configuration are set to be even more intense than this and you will be part of a very important period which I could even qualify as exceptionnal and very rare. There will be some very significant repercussions on your life.

Let me tell you a little more about myself. I am passionate about my activity and I am lucky enough to be gifted with a natural talent which I have cultivated and I have now being working professionally for a number of years. I have consulted for many people throughout the world, may of whom are rather well known, and it is in fact because of this that I was in Europe for a few days in February - to participate in and host a number of conferences. I am telling you this now because I think I am lucky enough to have a range of valuable skills at my command and a great deal of experience and so I am qualified to tell you when I feel such a powerful jolt (as I felt for you Cheryl) when consulting an individual's details for the first time. I only can explain it by the creation of a strong psychic connection between us when we first entered into contact. This bond has an enormous advantage for me as I am able to discern exactly what you are feeling at this time. Then I can compare and contrast this very personal information to your astrological configuration.

Cheryl, I am now going to tell you what I have discovered about you. What I am now going to tell you is very important and of course I have checked and double-checked everything before telling you, and as a matter of fact I work in a cabinet with several other astrologers and psychics and I asked a few of them to check and confirm what I am about to tell you. So here is what is is all about: a very important Transit period is on the way for you and you are perfectly positioned to get the very best out of the opportunities it is set to bring. Indeed, in a very short time you will find yourself in the glare of several powerful astrological influences, I told you that the Springtime period is generally an intense astrological period but for you it will be different because the Transit which you will be living through will be a very powerful time with very decisive consequences in your life. As a matter of fact, these influences will place you in a rare astrological Transit which will not occur again in your skies before a very long time. This is a period of 72 days during which a great number of opportunities are going to be offered to you. These opportunities are going to have a great impact on your life and here is what comes out of my analysis:

You can expect some very positive changes on a professional level and most particularly as far as your job is concerned. As a matter of fact your astral configuration shows very clearly that during this period of 72 days you will experience one of the most intense moments of your career. Let me be a little more precise, during this period you will have the possibility of making a stunning victory as far as your job is concerned and you will then be able to reach a new and important turning point in your career. Here are the factors which are most apparent:

- At this stage of the analysis is difficult to say exactly what this victory will be however I can say that it seems to be in relation to negocitations you will make abroad or with a foreign company.

- An important element from your past will participate in this victory and this element may consist of an encounter, a proposition or an affair which was made or took place several months ago and it will now represent an important opportunity for your career.

- This professional evolution will help you make lasting changes to the financial side of your life


This period will be very important for you on a whole range of different levels however as far as your love-life is concerned you can expect some great news and you will experience an intense joy! You are going to have the opportunity to reach a new turning point in your life, and you can expect changes in your relationship with this special person you have in mind. This will all happen in a number of different stages which will take place during these 72 days and it is very important that you know exactly how you should act to make the most of these moments. I must warn you however that you could encounter certain difficulties which may try to prevent you from establishing a relationship with this individual but don't worry, you will be able to overcome them. You just need to be aware of everything that is set to happen.


Cheryl, I must insist on the fact that this Transit is going to have an enormous influence and a great importance in your life. You need to be ready to seize all of the opportunities which are going to be open to you during this period as it represents a real chance in your life. For this, of course you need to have much more complementary information about many points, but let's proceed step-by-step because I think it is first indispensable to note that you will soon be living through a very important event in your life and then grasp all the necessary details about this event (where, how, what, when, with who...). This is why I have put a page online especially for you, Cheryl, where you can ask me to research this information.

https://pro16.abac.com/atoll1/j.php?p=request.cgi&r=2a&c=5vxku&f=Cheryl

However before you go to this page I invite you to continue reading this first reading as I have some more important information to tell you about.

Firstly you may be wondering at this point how I can be so passionate about your particular case. Well let me explain a little more about what I felt about you when we first entered into contact and how this has allowed me to know you even better,Cheryl.

You know that you are living through a very interesting period in your life, a time full of excitement in which there are still very many things to do. You have already gone through a number of different stages in your life and right now you seek a certain independence, to affirm your true values and your qualities. I perceive a great energy and excitement in you because you currently have someone in mind, someone who counts a lot for you and to whom you are very much attracted. You have wanted to and have felt a great need to act but you don't really know how to go about it and you are torn between timidity, fear of acting, getting it wrong and failing and on the other hand a real desire to get something to happen with this person.

I can see something important for you concerning the people that are closet to you and I can feel someone, a sibling or a friend, who is very close to you. In a more general manner I can see that you are sensitive to other people's feelings, you often put other's needs ahead of your own (especially those of close friends and family) and that yes, you do get a satisfaction out of helping others.

I know that you have an enormous amount of qualities and I want you to realize this as you often doubt yourself and your actions. I know that you are sometimes scared that things are going too fast in your life and sometimes you fear making inversable decisions. You ask yourself a lot of questions about your life and you even go so far as considering changing your life completely. Recently you have been energized by exciting thoughts of change but you haven't acted on these ideas due to your fear and doubt. You are terrified of failing and of making the wrong choice and this applies to many different aspects of your life, as much your career as your relationships and your love life. You also feel a great paradox within you and you often feel timid and engaging, introvert and extrovert and joyous and melancholic at the same time. As far as I am concerned I know that you have immense qualities which you do not even suspect exist, these are special and unique talents and it is now time to bring them all to life.

Lets get back to this period Cheryl as I should warn you about one particular point. If you do not act in a very decisive manner concerning this period then it is extremely likely that all of these important opportunities will simply pass you by. I have often seen people miss out on key moments in their life simply because they don't know what they should do and when they should act and this is how I want to help you. I must remind you that this Transit is a very rare event which will not come around again for a very long time to come and it will allow you to reach a decisive turning point in your career and reach an important turning point concerning your feelings for this person you are thinking about at the moment. To achieve this it is important that you find yourself in the right place and at the right time to take the right decisions and this is what I want to help you to do.

So you need to remember that if you do nothing there is a big chance that you will miss out on the full impact of the period, and I also want to tell you that only a professional astrologer can read your Skies correctly to bring you the information you truly need concerning your Transit of 72 days. Cheryl, you need precise and deep knowledge of all of the implications of this Transit in order to get the very best out of it's chances and opportunities.

Cheryl, I warn you in this way because the stakes concerning this period are too high. You need a professional to help you through this vitally important time in your life. This Transit is too significant and too important not to try and get all chances over on your side.

I must mention that I am not the only professional who could help you. You may of course consult with someone a little closer to your home or with an astrologer you are already familiar with. This person should be able to help you in exactly the same manner as I would be able to.

Of course as far as I am concerned I am also 100% ready to help you Cheryl. I have a wealth of important and exciting information to share with and I can give you full details on the following points:

More precisely, As far as your professional career is concerned. I will tell you:

- why this period will be one of the most favorable moments of your career
- what this victory is and how you can acheive it in your job
- when and how this victory will take place and what it will change for you
- what these 'foreign affairs' are and how they will surface during your Transit period
- how these affairs will affect your work
- what this important element from your past is and why it will be such an important opportunity
- what changes you can expect financially
- How the situation will change your work situation in the average to long term
- what you can generally expect to happen in your job
- what pit-falls you must avoid in the Future
- how your finances will evolve


I will also let you know exactly how this Transit will influence your love-life :

- which dates of this period will be the most intense
- what kind of things will happen to bring you closer to this person
- when you should act
- what is going to change in your relationship to this person
- which important turning point will be reached and why
- how this person will react towards you
- how you appear to this person
- how your lives together could evolve over time and in the long-term
- which elements may disturb your relationship


Here is again the web page where you can request my help, Cheryl. As soon as I receive your confirmation that you want me to work on your reading I can get straight to work on your complete analysis. On this same page I have also given you a link to some testimonials from other customers that I have also helped through my clairvoyance and astrology.

Here is the link: https://pro16.abac.com/atoll1/j.php?p=request.cgi&r=2a&c=5vxku&f=Cheryl

Have a good day and speak to you soon,

Your friend and astrologer,

Jenna"

My body is trying to be funny. My weight is playing games with me. There is no weighing machine at home, but I know I've put on weight. I can feel it in my posture. Stop eating, really. Stop pissing yourself off, Cheryl. Put on weight and be at the foot of everyone's name calling. Oh hail fat bitch! Stop binging, otherwise the tables might turn to you and you won't be able to ogle fun at other fat bitches saying they're fat and ugly. You are not hungry, you're just plain greedy. You disgust and revolt yourself sometimes. No, all the time. Fuck you Cheryl. Only I can do that by the way, so fuck off everyone. Really, fuck you. Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. Everyone stop being a fuckhead because I've quite had enough. Enough of fucked up people, situations, name the rest yourself. Fuckfaces.

FUCKING NABEI CHEEBYE.

There, a colossal typical Cheryl-swear. I should never take naps. Really.

Have you tasted caffeine and honey, blended? The bitterness and sweetness of the combination churns out a bittersweet aftertaste.

Have you craved for sushi and fed the urge to consume it because a certain someone forsaked her budget plans to accomodate to your costing appetite? Sashimi becomes much more delicious, indeed.

Have you been waited for, for enduring hours while you are following time tick by at work, by a certain someone? It does feel fuzzy inside knowing you are being waited for, and immediately greeted the moment the term 'work' closes in on your day.

Have you ever been hyper, to the extent of being irritating and wind up annoying the nerves out of a certain someone because you refuse to contain sanity? A certain someone ended up claiming that I've poked in too much tease into her clumsy nature.

Have you ever kept still, complementing silence while two loggerheads bask in beautiful quietude of a starry night? I felt content in its simplest form and I think a certain someone did too.

I love to act and I'd love to stage one, but I'm the worst one of the lot. Would you still pick me to run your masquerade?

morning sunshine.
a different note altogether from the usual text.
i hope u understand that im here with you be it the times you are happy or sad, feeling emo or even times you want to be alone.

this short msg is from me to you.

Where are we? What the hell is going on?
The dust has only just begun to form,
Crop circles in the carpet, sinking, feeling.
Spin me round again and rub my eyes.
This can't be happening.
When busy streets a mess with people
would stop to hold their heads heavy.

Hide and seek.
Trains and sewing machines.
All those years they were here first.

Oily marks appear on walls
Where pleasure moments hung before.
The takeover, the sweeping insensitivity of this
still life.

Hide and seek.
Trains and sewing machines.
Oh, you won't catch me around here
Blood and tears,
They were here first.

Mmm, what you say?
Mm, that you only meant well? Well, of course you did.
Mmm, what you say?
Mm, that it's all for the best? Ah of course it is.
Mmm, what you say?
Mm, that it's just what we need? And you decided this.
Mmm what you say?
What did she say?

Ransom notes keep falling out your mouth.
Mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut-outs.
Speak no feeling, no I dont believe you.
You don't care a bit. You don't care a bit.

Ransom notes keep falling out your mouth.
Mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut-outs.
Speak no feeling, no I don't believe you.
You don't care a bit. You don't care a bit.

You don't care a bit.

Find me a more suicidal song because I can't.

Take time to notice enough to realize that there is no such thing as unconditional love. It is non-existentent. It's just a matter of how noble we sew and patch things up to be. Often, the gift is granted more credit than the giver. Unconditional love is blasphemed then, isn't it?

I think I needn't digress further. You get my gist.

I'm so emo and I hate it.

It feels ghastly inside and outside currently and it's doubling the intensity of this. I find myself crying and I don't feel any consolation. Maybe some alcohol will do tonight's rest some justice.

I'd rather just die, you know.

Four days ago, I was unfortunately plagued by a 39degrees fever, a heinous bout of sore throat, a nose that runs and blocks co-currently. Still recovering from this phenomenal befall of flu, it's nearly impossible to begin imagining the full-day shifts I'll be undertaking the next three days. July's a hectic month, with me playing the diligent and money-thirsty bullock.

-

Did sunshine occupy your day? Did you remember that we used to smile more radiantly? Did a smile chance upon your face while reminiscing childhood and old days? Was the past measured with sheer happiness and nothing else? When we were younger, birthdays were with party hats and growing amount of candles and loved ones encircling one gigantic cake with cartoon characters inked on it. Sunday mornings were festooned with excited plans to the beachside to picnic, with endeared kins closeby. And during the nights of the weekends, Daddy would take us on a spin, which Mummy ungratefully complained was asking for a speeding ticket, before proceeding to supper. New found love was refreshing and adventurous with life, we as youngsters, sworn an eternity or two together, blissfully in love. Friendships striking their significance towards every child's adulthood. So much to behold.

Wait, did a loved one cause you tears? Did your heart slight a crackle? Did I hear you sniff sorrow? You watched past birthday video clips and forced a bittersweet smile; birthdays no longer need confetti and decorated cakes, they just carve deep in hearts. Now, we eat costly Tiramisu cakes instead of affordable confectionary ones. Daddy and Mummy no longer get along well. They age and are withering in health and finances. You struggle to cope. You keep struggling until you find it difficult to breathe in reality. Daddy scrimps on petrol so he stops bringing the family out. He even stopped coming home often. We wonder why he's seldom present at home. Mummy now complains at his poor refusal. My sister has found love in a Malay boy at sixteen whereas I'm at the lost-and-found phase of where things eventually begin. It is somebody new I'm embarking my heart's journey on, with tight reservations. We don't vow a prolonging lifetime of commitment and love to each other, we're just dating. Someday we might. We just might. However, I'm having myself exposed to a whole new dimension of a much-chased-after craze called Love. Friends have arrived and departed in ways more than one. Letting go is part and parcel. I should have known and learnt, so that I wouldn't have sunk in too much into details. Your heart pours and it these thought-spills convert into blog entries.

Isn't life remarkable?

I believe in beginnings, and of course, in endings too. But nobody really likes endings although we all know that endings are inevitable. I'll learn to dance to its music and cherish what ever is at hand.

Cliff Richards was right, these 'miss you nights' are the longest.
Sade predicted, I find myself craving to be 'by your side'.
N'sync demonstrated how it is like when I 'drive myself crazy thinking of you'.
Just like Evan and Jaron, I'm 'crazy for this girl'.
Marcos Hernandez didn't mean to love or need or want anyone, 'the way I do' you but I do.
Mcfly sings that their days are all about me, and I'll sing it to you that my days are and will be 'all about you'.

Ripping off Gareth Gates, these are all 'what my heart wants to say'.

(SLLJ, hope you didn't find the above write-up too corny. It's for you. Xue told me to copyright this. Consider it done, somehow. Sleep tight this Thursday night everyone. Sleep soundly, love. I miss you.)

Profuse in entanglements
For all time?
Promises pose vile
All the time

Careless, or care less?

Forgive my contemptuous ways and incivility. Allow me to slide into your embracing arms to feel home once more while my heart storms fleety beats of chemistry. Remember not the deeds I have scarred to wound you, forget not the words I try to soldierly keep by. The roots of entwinement slither perfectly as they live to flourish. I dream of spring time in autumn, and summer in winter. Might I have forsaken Cherish; might you have bequeathed another chance. The wondrous tomorrows we forecast veil themselves with ambiguousness. May today perform its best.

The words I have to say are the words you may refuse.

It's 5:06AM and hunger pangs are knocking the walls of my stomach and I'm thinking that we shouldn't have given supper a miss. I demand a hawker buffet soon.

The encore party wasn't too bad, except for the guys that were hogging the arena (psst, it got really annoying because they give off this awful stench when they pespire). Xue's birthday bash at Zouk last night churned a surprise presence of her favourite girl. I got to bump into Maine and danced for a measly few minutes before she scurried home without a trace (and without a snapshot with me).

(I'm still hungry.)

After two weeks of burden in my chest, my request to withdraw from Web Animation 2 has finally been approved. Now I needn't fret over the fall of my GPA. Boy am I glad! Next block commences the following week and I'm really hyped up for it, because the subjects I'm taking up will be Acting Workshop and Video Production.

"Dear Cheryl, CM had approved your request; I will forward the approval to the Manager / Academic Support."

A damsel, fair skinned and poised, well-versed and elegant. 18 she turns, a woman she transitions into. Her wishlist scrolls as long as a neverending stream of girlish fancy, her emotional wants as hungry as a starving phoenix. 18 she turns, she learns from pages torn off in history's records. Love she craves for, intently anticipating towards. Those hazel eyes cry their blues and smear the prettiest face I've ever seen. Still, behold the of the epitome of a most remarkable friendship. She is my best friend.

This 19th June, I'll wish my best friend, Cheryl Lim, more love and happiness to overwhelm her. May her eyes be brimmed with shimmering felicity, may her smiles stay permanent. May love be her strength and not her fall, may the exclusive loved one that comes her way sprinkle contentment to whole her. I wish her the world's most treasured riches - love, peace and happiness.

Life may cruelly vomit many bumps into your path, but you have me, whose presence will remain stagnant, here, always, despite much that we will face.

Happy birthday, dearest best friend. With much love.

All the world's a stage. You are I are its puppets. We set the play on hot wheels, with our masquerades. In time, we get worn out. Tattered and ragged, age surfaces in forms of wrinkles, crowfeet, failing health and greying hair.

Will you, my partnering puppet, still have me then?

you think u dont mean alot to me.
but i guess you should know the answer by now,
after last night.

unexpected.

Sundials lose their track of time and day
Winds knock at directions that stray
Where hate and love clashes alike
There, the extreme ends collide
Sweet slumber impoverishes power over nightfall
Owls, redundant with nature's queer call
Dreams sift with surrealism
Life awakes at every sunrise's enrichments
Rainbows turn grey
Colours void of array

Twenty four, misused
Breezes, misdirected
Interception, misunderstood
Sleep, manipulated
Unconscious, too, jaded
Vibrance, taken

Away.

Best friends loving.

It's a very sticky what-the-hell situation, whereby everything arrows and clumps into a mesh of trouble. I'll still stick by what I said before. Regret is the worst emotion that ever be possibly felt.

If you think it wasn't wrong, I'll tell you that it wasn't right either.

I'm experiencing double visions. I've got a hunch that Dana was never over me since first semester. Worry not and don't be jealous, Via via, you alone are enough to brim my heart. The nights without your voice are quite agonizing.

X-men 3 was really fun to watch! Wolverine is sexy. Love the attitude, love the way he says "furball". On the other hand, Omen 06.06.06 wasn't as phenomenal as I imagined it to be. Quite anticipating World Trade Center now.

I can't find the bloody shoe in brown and I should find it soon before I change my mind on buying it. Dying to shop.

Part One
darling i'll bring you home. says:
dun love me lor
Dana the Great says:
.
darling i'll bring you home. says:
HMM DO U
darling i'll bring you home. says:
hahahaha
Dana the Great says:
DO U
darling i'll bring you home. says:
waahahaha
darling i'll bring you home. says:
do i what
Dana the Great says:
love me
Dana the Great says:
as your lawfully wedded wife
darling i'll bring you home. says:
wahahahahahahahahahahahaha
darling i'll bring you home. says:
do u love me as ur lawfully wedded husband
Dana the Great says:
YOU MAY KISS THE BRIDE!!!!
darling i'll bring you home. says:
HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE
darling i'll bring you home. says:
KISS

Part Two
Dana the Great says:
Truth is...............I never got over you
Dana the Great says:
Truth is....Wish I was standing in her shoes
Dana the Great says:
Truth is...........And when it's all said and done
Dana the Great says:
Guess i'm stil in love with yoiuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

Part Three
Dana the Great says:
Love actually
Dana the Great says:
Sugarababes too lost in you
Dana the Great says:
baby i'm tooo lost in you
Dana the Great says:
caught in you
Dana the Great says:
lost in everything about you

She placed a shoe back onto the rack, and causing a stampede of the other shoes on the same rack. Instead of fretting in guilt, she giggled throughout. She rested on my shoulders in the bus and slept through an hour's ride, and claimed that it might be the first time she's ever slept anyone's shoulders and that she made me feel masculine. When she brings out her iPod Nano out of her bag in the bus, it is also another way of indiciating that she intends to sleep. She triggered my anger nerves just a while ago, but made it up with one text and three words. She was bitchy towards me but I reciprocated bitchiness with bitchiness. She indulges sinfully in Chinese cuisine (Dim Sum) and wears the most satisfying and contented look on her face after a meal's done. She's also been working excessively. And, we haven't purchased our shoes together.

It's been brought to my attention that my entries have all been either dedicated to her or about her, of late.

Alright. Absolutely need to catch back sleep. Pleasant night to all, and to my baby.

Never have I quite witnessed recurring excitement accelerate the way it did, derived from taking control of the steering wheel of a lorry. Time occupied with you is priceless. Being able to meet you at the end of everyday has taken work's weighty toll away.

Face me. Don't face wall anymore okay? I'd gladly be hugging you now even with you snoring while sleeping. Really looking forward to Saturday. I miss you, silly girl.

Hugged, kissed and made up. =D

We'll slog hard and work things out. Appreciate every effort you initiated to pacify me and calm me. I. Love. You. Put them together, and these words are from me to you.

Desperate for a shut-eye. I'm reluctantly anticipating twelve hours of toll at work.

I miss you, silly girl.

Love
Rover
Role
Look
Lover
Over
Rove
Lookover

All unscrambled from OVERLOOK. How marvellous, wordplay is.

Look, this look-over is getting to me, so let's work things out as lovers and try our mights never to overlook anything. Done, deal, love?

FemmeQuest2006 previews last night.






Tiresome day ahead. The grey skies sailing across pouring skies complement an ideal snuggle with you. This morning was abruptly detached due to work. I think I just miss being next to you.

Sade has become a listening crave overnight. I am refusing to attend Alan Rudge's second week of Web Animation 2 since attendance doesn't need to be regulated. My hair requires another cut (and a lot of sloping). Tomorrow marks first day of work.

Have you ever felt drowned in fatigue and depressed from excessive thinking?

Sade - By Your Side
You think I'd leave your side baby?
You know me better than that
Think I'd leave you down
When you're down on your knees?
I wouldn't do that
I'll tell you you're right when you're wrong
And if only you could see into me

When you're cold
I'll be there
Hold you tight to me
When you're on the outside
Baby, and you can't get in
I would show you
You're so much better than you know
When you're lost, you're alone
Can't get back again
I will find you
Darlin' and I'll bring you home

And if you want to cry
I am here to dry your eyes
You know time
You'll be fine

Morning world. The sun seems to shine brighter today, pesky insistent callers don't seem to gnaw on raw nerves, wearing short hair doesn't seem to bother me as much as it did last night, overspending on travel fare is overlookable, accumulating fines at the video rental shop doesn't make me budge anymore. You made angsty nightspells and migraine-bugging mornings much better.

You're an enigma. I'm up so high, afraid to dive in to test new waters.

Didn't wanna want you
Didn't wanna need you so bad
Didn't wanna wake up
To find that I was falling so fast
Didn't wanna need you
Didn't wanna need anyone
But I do

Mouthing words, yet unspoken
Taking flight, deliriously piercing through ocean skies
Gliding surfaces of the vision
A liberated swan
Awe, in beautitude
Nature coincides romance
Journeys, on

A candle that once burned poison flames, you helped die out. With blooming chemistry, you lit another flame; a fire gradual in warmth and gentle with care upon my restless heart. The ray is dim, but it brightens day by day. My heart's at rest whenever you fill spaces surrounding me, whenever fears consume me. They, the words of reality which you have given me, they sustain sanehood. With that, the plunge I drape hopes onto requires your catch. Let's hope this fall didn't arrive too late.

Because falling is what I'm doing.

Now I'm thinking it was the lack of competency or was the target out of my league or was I just care-less regarding circumstances and the aftermath of actions. The mind is the most powerful tool for passing decisions, fickle or not, yet the authority it holds over all others sifts like fine sand, dispersing into nothingness whenever emotions participate in choices. A mind parring with a heart; a triumph to which? Songs, poems, movies and occurences stop reminding you that nostalgia is inevitable; instead, to reminisnce is to blunder further.

I've stopped rewinding memories. As a matter of fact, I've been anxious in anticipating new memories and moments being made with an entirely new person. This person must be special to have been able to tide me through what I'd claim to be the stormiest phase. I could not have been brave, if there was no her; I could not have crossed my own boundary of the limitless, if there was no her.

For the first time in my life, my heart voices out at the level of my head, accomodating to countless pros and cons and weighing them accordingly. Indeed, dignity has returned.

I'll never promise you a forever of love or frolicks in fantasy or vow to be there always, but I'll outstretch my might just to reach out to you.

fetish for long hair, i do not. maybe it's a coincidence, aint it?

flashback, it makes me smile. hopefully not like a moron. of course, not forgetting jotting down each outing and many 'firsts'. it seems so yesterday out of a sudden. but i would say, it's a pleasant feeling afterall.

i miss you, silly one.

Screened a live play of the contemporary version of Anthony and Cleopatra although it's more slapstick than contemporary; expected something more abstract.

I have personal messages in this entry for two friends who are thoroughly endeared.

First and foremost, Dana. Nobody defines a winner merely by a mole. Hagefive will give our utmost support to you, thick and thin, through and through. Regardless of whichever outcome, you were the sole ultimate winner.

Second on list, Xue. You're not alone in this because we're all right here for you. At least I know I am. Problems arise all the time, and if the spaces around you frightens you and engulfs you, just keep in mind that I'm here to fill a bit of that space.

She likes me being chatty and finds it foreign when I'm hushed on words. She likes cheese and mushroom prata. She loves suppers. She binges more when her period approaches. She ate ban mian in the evening (I indulge in ban mian a lot). She gulps down the unbroken yolk of her ban mian. She showers without informing. She sleeps at plays. She adores shopping for shoes. Her car is tuned in to Class 95; she enjoys listening to oldies. Gold 90.5 is too ancient a channel to be listening to for her. She calls me a goat, a silly goat. She's a working bull, but spares time for me. She glared at me in the taxi, but ends up pacifying seconds later. She has a little scrap book of our firsts and to-dos indited in it. She is a klutz at directions (which makes me her diretory sometimes). She constantly tells me she likes xiao long baos. The appetite is as eccentric as the girl. She is a talented pianist, although I haven't had the honours of being played to. She dozes off while working at the steering wheel. She is SLLJ.



All this photograph needs is Phoebe Liu and voila, picture perfect (=

Oldies can really be lovely reminisce-inducers.

Experienced extra miles to complete my Web Animation online journal 2 last night, only to awaking to a worsened sore eye; what dire consequences of not indulging care unto your eyes. Doing a countback, school is going to seem afar and absent with five days of being a distant away from it.

The way we resolve disputes is really adorable. I'd paste in an extract of our goofiness after the squabble last night but I shut the window before I saved the chatlog.

I've just received news that I've been employed and work commences the following Friday. This also indicates more retail outings. Bullock away, and see the numbers increase in the bankbook. SLLJ and I are workaholics to be. We're going to get our hair done together, catch X-men 3 and buy shoes together on Monday!

The scent of your cologne drives me crazy. You have rubbed off your influence on me of the craze for shoes, which is probably why I'm deliriously shopping for shoes and sneakers and being more than acceptable with wearing them out. Without fail, you're always taking away cakes from your workplace to fatten me up. Of late, I find myself tuning into Class 95 all the time and it must be your preference of channel that again, rubbed its influence onto me. You insistently make attempts to visit me at the void deck even though I reject your ideas more than half of the time. Secretly, I discover myself ogling at the way you get mad because I think you seem so irresistible when you're mad at me. Aye, not so secret anymore.



I miss you. Miss your smell. SLLJ, please blog soon!

Scraped off all plans to chop my black roots, only because you have a fetish for long hair. You told me I wasn't a single bit mushy and I absorbed that as a hint to be mushier. Heart to heart conversations seemed passe and long-gone, but last night's renewed the misconception of impossibilities. This year's birthday has been most beautiful, adorned with sincere and meaningful company, lots of booze and one sweet date who baked hazelnut chocolate-overload cakes for me.

SLLJ, I miss you.