Saturday, July 30, 2005

A cigarette clamps between trembling fingers
Two cigarette smoked

A melody, absence of instruments;
a choir of tears
Dampened love letters
Dusty isolated special tokens
Mosaic fragments to a torn picture
Formulated reasons
The colony of hurt
The disputes turned absurb
A transformation impossible
Her honeyed promises, waverable

A train of song tracks
A string of thoughts since two years back
An aged picture, yellowed
Two shattered escapists, tired and mellow
Shrills of insecurity
Grievous deeds of impurity

Prendre et casser


Thursday, July 28, 2005

The stars on display in the vast open above quietly glistened their purpose. A thousand smiles, evergreen moments under exquisite nightfall. A sincere smile, in the garden of genuine tranquil. A fateful night. when moonlight represents serenity, and a wholesome silence harps music to the heart. The joyous lit their lights as we gazed at them flicker to the music and muse of our hearts. Toasting with glasses of wine between interlocked arms, to a tomorrow more beautiful than today.

Tuesday, July 26, 2005



See right through me.

Monday, July 25, 2005

Confusion sprawls onto metaphors, while the words splatter against blackened conscience. The mind loses its ability to rummage away mixed emotions. The head stumbles upon swirling of several circumstances, but all that rings within are thuds of evasion.

For hours, she waited by intently, for the voice of comfort. She anticipated, till it was time to dream of the strange and beautiful, again.

Sunday, July 24, 2005

She stared blankly into the liquor that cascaded into the glass flute. The spinning in her head throbbed and the pain started vibrating within her thoughts. The minuscule amount of booze increasingly became drowning confusion. The state of disorientation consumed her consciousness as she repeatedly refilled the glass. Myriads of hallucination administrated her sanity, leaving her in bouts of sobs and eccentric yarps of uncertain joy. Alcohol, her only company.

A heart she gave to several cherished ones, a love commited into perception; to belong to suburbs of humanity. A hand she took, the fingers she slipped past, the clench that freely loosened.

Another lonely Sunday this is.

Saturday, July 23, 2005

Two in the bask of sheer bliss
Two, back stronger in one piece
Two entwined in a sacred spot
Two crooning to their favourite song
Two, unconscious in slumber, on each they rest
Two on escapades in fantasical fests
Two spinning on a carousel,
Two, one hero one damsel
Two bound by a knot that tightens over time
Two that fights every scratch and grime

Two involved in an affair so true
Two, are me and you.

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

Selfish prys into inner cuts
Fresh excruciate for the aching heart
A concoction brewed from confusion
Paddles thoughts into devastation
Deceit penetrates beneath the skin
Everyday's common facade could still be seen
A love dipped in anaesthetic
From the tragic crash and hit
The incessant battering and hurling at
How difficult loving is becoming to get

The simplest of its form
Left in shambles of forlorn
Vows made always kept dear
Love made never obliged to fear

Finale of a pen-down
In prayers we don't forget to cast away frowns
May the lonely nights meet day
May the cause of tears never replace
Within the purest of pain in these blues,
I have always remembered,
I missed you.

Monday, July 18, 2005

The long and winding path appears to engulf the footsteps that will lead her back Home. The steps she trudge forward to, stretch a hundred torturous miles. Uncertainty afilled, the hole she stands in eats on the light that paves the journey back out.

A sore heart, and none to outstretch healing hands. Cloud-eyed, with no cloth to wipe them dry. A confused problematic, with no solutions.

Sunday, July 17, 2005

A blinding snow-white sheet warps the mind. As much as she wishes to slice the canvas apart to enable clearer vision, fatigue is constantly on the guard to slay her down. Too much tiredness, overpowering spaces unfilled, hollow sadness. How she wants to let hopeful souls down, how she dwells on what-ifs. Neverending is the non-directional narrow path. The only detour is turning back.

What is wrong?

No. What is ever correct? The angst that souls are banished to hell for human nature, karma in Christianity, gypsies casting future in crystal balls.

I'm questioning God. I think I'm growing to be quite an atheist.

Saturday, July 16, 2005

She tries elegantly to tap her cigarette to rid off excess ash, masking her fidgeting. Smoke clouded her mind, fogging sanity. The constant refill of nicotine dosage was the only aversion she could apply.

I cannot fathom the outcome of my dreams, those haunting dreams that daunt upon slumber. I cannot imagine a day, when all that remains beside me are sheets of bed and lingering memories.

Thursday, July 14, 2005

The cold weather seems to be revolving on a pun. A language turn; with chinese tracks crooning to innermost dilemmas.

Placing the world in your possesion on the table, and walking miles from it, the bondage releases. You heave breaths of burden, yet tears are still on the verge of imploding down supple cheeks so vulnerable.

Soon, the ones you love so perpetually, leave you in a vast space of defeat. Sandcastles you earnestly constructed, collapse at the slightest howls of wind. Still, hatred does not replace love; it never can.
To You, Marion

Weakened fatigue-stained sails, that took on journeys to extreme ends of the globe. A thousand noble miles it would venture to keep sailors safe and unhurt. The boat's sails were created, to brave through wicked weather, to defy the winds and hurdles, to question nature, to comfort sailors and passengers in the voyage, to guard off fears.

You were my sail. And I, your boat.

The boat now has new passengers boarded at ports, shores and lands, but sails unchanged. Forever. Friendships never discard trustworthy sails, sails that were carved out to be a boat's favourite company. Your love made me bloom from a wilting bud to a fertilising rose, and now, reminisce will provide me strength.

Monday, July 11, 2005

Fragile hands clutch the pages of the book of nostalgia. Remembrances bite like needles in the chest. Fallable phony. A heart can only pine for as long it prevails amidst the painful longing. Death descends upon nightfall in structures of uncertain shadows that trace history. The flames of cremation mark the finale of a send-off, yet, a portion of me burned along with you.

Just three more nights, and realistic imagination will replay, haunting consciousness and dreams. Cruel anticipation.

July, the month of melancholy and woe, absence and departure, three years, one everlasting affinity, Marion.

Thursday, July 07, 2005

Riddles and prose bid a better voyage,
up fairy hills and glittered road paths.
Casts away clothed valleys and the folded caves
and unpicks them into magical dust.
Till two souls meet again in perfect coincidental intercept,
till fellowship makes its reunions,
Soulcleavage will be the angel of goodwill's return.

When the coming paves its journey back into scripts,
hiccups of the heart will tie to a knot
while demons shove into fraught.

There and then,
my soul will be longing for company;
With eager and anxious hearts awaiting, too.
Just a while, just a short while.

So long, farewell.

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

The river's currents wash swan's ability and energy, discarding it like filth on its astonishing wings. Its wings used to shine from its smoothness, and reflect its whiteness; now all that is seen of swan's wings is a grotesque figure of mess. Breaths of struggle transform into lethargic surrender. The aching swan flaps its wing and merciless waves crush its bones and disfigured its self. It drowns in the bottomless river, ending suffering to a silent pitch.

If you go, there you may hear helpless cries of a swan. Some claim, that the swan was seen in its original form - magnificent and leaving many in awe of its elevating grandiose. But others say, myths will forever remain myths.

Monday, July 04, 2005

Continual audacity at free-flow dispense; images that surrounds her wheel themselves at a repeat mode. The tracks spinning blends in with the liquor swimming through her veins. Together, they boogie to the rhythm of the club beats. They let the disco lights hyponotise their consciousness, along with the booze. With arms waving in the air and with their sweaty bodies in sensual brushes, adrenaline escalates.

Around her is a myriad of commotion, yet, the resounding silence within her pounds louder than the beat of her heart. She begins reminiscing the days in the arms of comfort, catching re-runs together on the couch.

She wishes to replay all that was lost.

Sunday, July 03, 2005

An eagle suffers from disability in flight with one wing; the eagle is unable to soar into the planes of skies. A desert lacking of water cannot dispense a rainfall; the desert cannot halt dehydration and drought. A seedling cannot develop and sprout from its ground if there isn't sunlight. Similarly, a hand cannot clap because it takes two.

A man whose legs are chained with boulders cannot trudge another inch forward, because all that swarms his mind are thoughts of turning back as a free man, letting off his gilded cage and heavy heart.

Will we see another second together, say, next month?

Friday, July 01, 2005

Grappling with the mesh of entangled threads, affinity tries to weave itself from the clutches of wayward outcomes. The mornings are awaken to a complete piece of mind, yet the nights finish with stings of tears in the eyes. Felicity tortured as a fugitive of its enemy. Numbers of times wasted bit-lipped, trying to contain real emotions when facts throw callous daggers at what is deemed unsympathetic.

The day arrives, and she will discover extreme sorrow of memory, long passed-on recollection of the only soulmate that has her humanity retrieved. Up high amidst the heavens, she is there intently watching over, silently prophesizing better returns in the next life.