Take me, where the dead living are at. Take me, to a happier place. Take me, to a Boston, a Houston, a Sandiego. Take me, anywhere from here.

Having survived through first and second hand stageplays of parts and parcels of my life, I've been accustomed to firmly believe that infidelity (of any form and sort) is a disease. I believe that there is nobody, is ever capable of staying entirely faithful to one person during a course of any romantic relationship. I'm no angel to this ironically shameless and shameful pattern of behaviour, while I was on the other side of my sexuality. Since that turned around, so has things with me. Many a times, conflicts process in a manner of a choice between abandonment or cruel silence.

It takes a saint, to not implement the same cycle of cheating after being cheated on. It is near Godly, that forgiveness at that point, is still the only option there is.

Truth is, you are bound to break someone's heart, the same way they are bound to break yours. We're all tainted with the conventional misconceptions of love and commitment. But what else are we to do?

Because that's what we do, we tear each other apart. We break one another, wide open, and this lasts a long time. We continuously do this until someday, we're left with nothing to break each other with. And at that point, there will be no love, no kind words, no making up, no embracing, no apologies, no empathy, no remorse and no turning back. There will not even be ashes and dust to serve as remains of a past so meaningful. At that point, all that will be left, is perpetual indifference and another set of cynical take-outs.

New found solace grounds for writing, and vice versa, new writing grounds for solace; permanent shift of the world I call mine.

IDNL. IDNY. IDNA. YPTC.

Soulcleavage, no doubt you have been a form of therapy, but the release that I used to derive from confiding in you have brought about fragility. You have thus brought me too much memories that no longer do I wish to hold close and endearing to me.

I am shaken awake, and I am done being read. Good bye.

And I'm alright
Standing in the streetlights here
Is this meant for me
My time on the outside is over
We don't know how you're spending
all of your days
Knowing that love isn't here
You see the pictures
But you don't know their names
Cause love isn't here

And I can't do this by myself
All of these problems, they're all in your head
And I can't be somebody else
You took something perfect
And painted it red

No sympathy
When shouting out is all you know
Behind your lies
I can see the secrets you don't show
We don't know how you're spending
All of your days
Knowing that love isn't here
You see the pictures
But you don't know their names
Cause love isn't here

And I can't do this by myself
All of these problems, they're all in your head
And I can't be somebody else
You took something perfect
And painted it red
When you took something perfect
And painted it red

You take the best things from
Then everything gets empty
That's not a world that I need
You take the best things from me
Then everything gets empty
That's not a world that I need


Daniel Merriweather - Red


Merriweather. Funny name. This is such an 'ouch' song. I don't know what is absolutely wrong with bittorrent. It refuses to let me download Lady Gaga and John Mayer's new album in peace without prompting me that the path cannot be specified.

Anyway, happy 22nd 18th birthday Dana! Love you much! <3

I don’t know where I’m at
I’m standing at the back
And I’m tired of waiting
Waiting here in line, hoping that I’ll find what I’ve been chasing.

I shot for the sky
I’m stuck on the ground
So why do I try, I know I’m going to fall down
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?
Never know why it’s coming down


Jason Walker - Down


It's amusing. It's stingingly amusing. Stop making me feel like this. Please. Just try and listen. Just be around to try.

For once in the longest time ever, me and Mr Golden Sun are actually seeing eye to eye! It's going to be a fabulous day getting soaked in the yummy sun! Goodbye to fairness!

I miss the Baby Mak Wai Keat! (((:

Edit//9:26pm
Both Baby and I are burnt nearly black. (((((((:

I actually feel much better after watching Lady Gaga's Bad Romance music video. It kind of makes anybody divert the center of gravity of emotions, to angst or anger of some sort.

I just want to get out of this empty shit hole tonight.

So throw me a rope to hold me in place. Show me a clock for counting my days down. Cause everything's easier when you're beside me. Come back and find me, cause I feel alone.

If I walk, would you run?
If I stop, would you come?
If I say you're the one, would you believe me?
If I ask you to stay, would you show me the way?
Tell me what to say so you don't leave me.
The world is catching up to you
While you're running away to chase your dream
It's time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change

And maybe I'm not ready
But I'll try for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough


Asher Book - Try


I know the answers to the questions in the song.

Goodie goodie! I'm waiting for Baby to be done showering so that we'll finally be able to head out and play the much-awaited L4D2! I've tried a tiny bit of the demo though. Saucepan as melee weapon (lol). 

I still haven't had my red ruby dessert! Shall buy Baby Mak to get it with me later. (((: