Comfort sets ajar and creates vacant spaces for word and food for thought. Everyday is lived battling new faces for courage and the consumption from remnants handicaps the fit will of fundamental belief. Vital presence lionizes the overrated time, and time is always granted in personal favour, or not. This temporal comprehension of chronology is a permanent scratch of age, of beauty, of joy, of peace, and of all their oppositions. Just as suffering is avid, overcoming is its nature's key, yet I am but a stranger of being part of nature. Conditioned to understanding foolishness like a snake at its prey, names and fond inclinations will someday turn back to be replaced. It is as if my requests, claimed with simplicity, has undoubtedly transitioned into an endless constellation of perplexities.

February has so much to offer, as it confirms proposals of losses. The world is oblivious to that because I am living this world on my own. Nobody will pain at the thought of February the way I do. Love is magnetic, as it is wishing to repel at positive reciprocation.

Your absence will be like an apocalypse, bitterly saddening and consistently tragic. Well, the clock still ticks. God doesn't listen much, to have displaced me in this messy calculation of 12 numbers, 12 months, 365 days, and that certain dilemma of 2 years. Because if He loved me, these are mere slip-ups between me and the people who have been condemned.

The choice was not mine and never was mine to make. This arrangement is not out of my will or enthusiasm, it is just life for me.

Turmoils, incessant quarrels seem to be the latest on-goings amidst our lives right now. Many a times such negativity always brings a damp to our fragile, relatively short 5months of Our relationship. More often than not, i am sure such vibes only makes leaves us doubting whether this love of ours is strong enough to sustain more difficult things on our way ahead.

To Bobby, I see a silver lining in times like these. It was particularly bad for the last one, but it made me realised that being together with you, is not only seeking an apology when ur wrong and i m right, not about seeing who puts down their egos first n initiations. I was wrong. What matters is to be there for each other, admitting that both of us r wrong which resulted in the squabble, regardless who's right or wrong.

My vision of seeing you one day becoming my wife, may be rather opaque now. but slowly and surely, I envision You to be my partner one day in time to come :) we just need to change what we are so used to living our 2 decades of life of mostly being single, to one that involves us, just like a pair of Siamese Twins haha.

Darling, never doubt my feelings for you, never doubt every single actions, evey whinings or every quarrels we had or will have, All these goes to show my love for you that never wanes, that increases day by day.Good times may be the best time of a relationship, but it defeats the purpose if we dont go thru' the process of bad times together as one, as well.

In short, You're the only person i have in heart, the only person my heart will give to.
I love you Cheryl Perterror Cyclopress :)

Love
Bobby.

Vague sound of rain
Pierces through my song again
But I get distracted by the way his toes move when he plays
So I let it burn

I just poured my heart out
there's bits of it on the floor
And I take what's left of it and rinse it under cold water
And call him up for more

And I say baby, yes I feel stupid to call you, but I'm lonely
And I don't think you meant it when you said you couldn't love me
And I thought maybe if I kissed the way you do, you'd feel it too

He said I'm sorry
So sorry
I'm sorry
So sorry

He grabs my wrists
As my fingers turn into angry fists
And I whisper why can't you love me, I'll change for you
I'll play the part

And I say baby, so I feel stupid to call you, but I'm lonely
And I don't think you meant it when you said you couldn't love me
And I thought maybe if I kissed the way you do, you'd feel it too

He said I'm sorry
So sorry
I'm sorry
I am sorry

(Maria Mena - Sorry)

"Sometimes I imagine my own autopsy. Disappointment in myself: right kidney. Disappointment of others in me: left kidney. Personal failures: kishkes. ... When the clocks are turned back and the dark falls before I'm ready, this, for reasons I can't explain, I feel in my wrists. And when I wake up and my fingers are stiff , almost certainly I was dreaming of my childhood. ... Yesterday I saw a man kicking a dog and I felt it behind my eyes. I don't know what to call this, a place before tears. The pain of forgetting: spine. The pain of remembering: spine. All the times I have suddenly realized that my parents are dead, even now, it still surprises me, to exist in the world while that which made me has ceased to exist: my knees. ... To everything a season, to every time I've woken only to make the mistake of believing for a moment that someone was sleeping beside me: a hemorrhoid. Loneliness: there is no organ that can take it all."

"It is to the credit of human nature, that, except where its selfishness is brought into play, it loves more readily than it hates. Hatred, by a gradual and quiet process, will even be transformed to love, unless the change be impeded by a continually new irritation of the original feeling of hostility."

Godly Goddess.

Should I cut my hair? I need opinions!

She's crazily gorgeous.

I was cool then and am THIS close to cutting my hair THIS short.











Going to indulge in ripple frozen treats to divert the wallowing pittance.

To a crux, whereby laughter transits into a wondrous fit of pieces in settlement. In my memory, the days without your arrival no longer exist. A heart cannot feel more glad.

Hello there,

its been eons since my last update came in here. how timely can this entry be after tasting the bitterness and fiery of numerous squabbles and mired doubt, followed by sweetness like so f****ing sweet kind. Nonetheless it opened my mind to everything about You! from the highest of hills to the deepest of chasms, i realised that You!, are someone i have my mind firmly made up to be with, i m prepared for whatever's at stake, whatever may come, and us, walking to the rainbow horizon.i may not be as talented in penning metaphorical words, painting literal poems into description, nothing's stopping my love i wanna convey to YOU! 

I LOVE YOU!!!! EEEEEE U MAKE ME A HAPPY BOY.

ok back to today's event. surprised baby at her doorstep early today, together with some bubbletea for her family. Thot i could have really succeeded in giving her a pleasant surprise until baby lio squeal exposed me. bleah haha but still baby lio's our cute little puny ass baby! haha.

We prepared and baked some cupcakes! not that i had really put in a lot of effort into the whole baking, u cant dismiss the effort i put into helpin u adjust the cakes, put them into the hot oven, pinching some uncooked cupcakes and being more of a hindrance than help in the kitchen. but still i tink i m of decent help! haha! 

yeah yeah thick skinned i know, next bet my sweety gonna say "NHW, y r u SO irritating? EEK!" haha that picture of expression is so embedded in my mind now that i find it so lovable haha. we made dinner too, had spaghetti linguine with hotdogs,ham brocolli with carrots,cheddar cheese and onions. haha it was awesome possum fabulous! and credits to my lovely that all things made possible, at the expense of the ahem, mess we stirred up in the kitchen ahha. what was created in e kitchen not only ended up all in our tummies, but oso the garlic smell that lingered in our hands, as well as the cream of the cupcakes (cum lookalike) kind haha that stained our OCS shirts.

Oh talkin abt that, i rmb, same white slippers, same black pants, same OCS tshirts,both geeky couple wearing specs n smokin the same cigarette while lazing at the awww-so-comfortable couch outside with baby lio. its magical. time was jus slow and amazing.hoped time wld have come to a standstill but sadly. still i had a magical time with darling today.

well i dun have the fotos with me now, and i m pretty sure darling's gonna fill u guys in with the visuals, so now i have the pleasure of first treating u all with the descriptions haha.

darling you make my day so great.despite the countless of quarrels we always have, you are there always standing out there, lookin after me in every possible way. protecting me when someone's laughin at me, or someone taking advantage of u. i may not be gentlemanly at times, but i still very wish i can be ur man that goes thru Life with you, massaged ur sore bruised legs, tucking u to bed every night, entertaining u with my cheesy, on-the-spot lame jokes that cracks u up. i may not have the answer to how u going to cope with my impending study. but i can put my balls on the line that i wanna be responsible for myself, for u. i wanna save everything for u.i wanna give us the best life we can have. i may not be able to take the blow, but i take all these moments, be it gd or bad, as a good sign to us becoming together as One, in the future.

With that, rest on my words, you have it.

I am yours.

I love you.

Bobby 

1010pm

*okay goin back to work PIEU!*

:)

An idle Tuesday, dawdled away productively in the kitchen, coming to swell terms with the stove and the oven. My flair for baking is definitely more prominent than the one I have with cooking. So menu for the evening consisted of sausage linguini and vanilla cupcakes for dessert. Altogether, I was bustling in the kitchen for approximately three hours, but all in vain's worth.

Did I mention that the boyfriend showed up a surprise and kept me company through the aunty-smelling process of preparations, with three servings of our recent favorite bubble teas. Baking is therapeutic, coupled up with excellent company, what could better a dull working day like this?

Some photos to optimize your visual appetite.

He insisted on posing with the C and the H.

Don't take much lookin' back to know I took my coffee black then

Nothing different now but nothing seems the same and it's alright.
Your optimistic views your hundred dollar running shoes and
Carpel tunnel syndrome we all had a laugh about it


Chinatown's Saturday

Pictorial engravings, they freeze moments in time.

As I turn around a 180 and re-witness him slinging his arms across the breadth of my bed with trickling of his childlike habits, I begin to grow a little fonder of his bedtime routines. The air of this night has tempered to a chilly-breezed date to mark closely in a heart's calendar.

Each moment with and without him now is a moment of concern; if he's being tucked warm enough or if the blanket's causing a sweat out, if dinner's ambiance was mind-blowingly romantic and if the cuisines served were delightful to his taste buds, if he prefers me in my little red laced or littler black thongs, if my dressing was pleasing to his eyes, if the colour and type of flowers were suitable to his liking, if he wants his uniform re-ironed in the morning, if he's forgotten to remember bringing his key pouch and wallet and phone with him when we head out, if he's woken up after snoozing on my daily alarm calls, and the list could go on endlessly. And each moment, is a flower in my hair and a future stab in my chest. So may time improve this love and nurture a sense of foreverness in both our hearts.









My days have gotten familiar with this certain man who was once stranger than Mars and Venus. Bobby has brought the classroom essentials of love to a whole new level and we'll indefinitely be seeing more than these four months. And myself, I couldn't cradle a more requited relationship with this man of coincidence. Four months, and I know I'll never get enough of you.

To love, to you, to me, to us.