Swerving sides on a flip of coin
Sturdy shield of a soldier toy
Maiden blushes, hot scarlet flushes
Crafted desires to fan passion's fires
Bursting knots of music, afloat to staccatoes
Swaying like the meadows of stringing legatoes
Warmth suffused, body enthused
My rainbow, evolved into radiant hues

"I prefer to move to another table where I can retain my illusion, if illusion it be, that I am working against probabilities, and have a chance to win. Then if you lose, you can blame it on your own poor playing. That is called fragile flaw, and like guilt, it is very comforting. You can go on believing there is a right way way. Only you didn't find it."

The latter tries to achieve the big and great things, but little did they note to realise that those are comprising of many small things that outshine every valiant knight in shining armour. Sometimes, nothing is as real as dreams, which is the probably key to why people dream. Foolish beings, we are, dreaming of twirling candyflosses, sea skies, fields of marigolds. Our lives are waded purposefully, according to maximizing stretch of time and to sowing the rightful pots of gold we reap.

Like that latter, I am but guilty of this. With all said, nothing is retrackable and irreplaceable, just moulded history and wilting love. And with this, these words are my own, though apologies heal not, I bear regret and sensitive grudge. Forgive me, dear.

New! And mine, in pink!

It is ridicule to the ears of R&B fans that Usher should be whining a new single like You'll Be In My Heart. Picture this, Usher gone Disney.

A ship of 10 hundred folds, consummation of 10 months' voyage, wrecked
A flight of 10 thousand steeping steps, a fall 10 hundred thousand feet
10 acres of separating miles, 10 calls of sweet-nothings so unbearable and foul
There are 10 missed rings, there are 10 tens unreturned ones
10 apologies, kissed and made up, multiplied by 10 more unforgiveable mistakes
10 solid kisses, adding 10 more bruises
Showers of unconditional perfection that descended to a nothing
After 10 months

Because we have outstretched these distances, just to halt at ten. Why?

With phlegm thicker than caramel, with nose as stuffed as a kebab-pita, with eyes as beady as M&M pop-in(s), with rash infesting my body's skin, running a temperature as eccentric as Jekyll and Hyde, I am finally relenting to the idea of going to the doctor's.

Things JB have that Singapore does not:
1) Dunkin Donuts
2) Imitation, Adidas Goods
3) Illegal VCDs and DVDs
4) Gag-inducing Kenny Roger's
5) FOC(Free Of Charge) toilets utilities
6) Carbon Monoxide everywhere

Chua's a happy girl because I got her..

The lacing of rose extractions festooned the scarlet velvet curtains that majestically draped down from the echos of its ceiling. The hallway's windows pryed open, and a wisp of luscious breeze caressed their heated skin. Acquaintances nodded polite bows as they met and passed on by. A mist of quiet stilled the cool calm morning's usual chatters. Subtlety, favourite remedy.

Grab some originality man, bitch. It's been eons that people (inclusive of myself) have noticed you taking after my traits. Simply put, you have nothing you can proudly call your own. You follow and relate closely to the saying "monkey see monkey do", and photostat the latter, which eventually multiplies the figures of what we term and label as copycats. How many conflict do you want to incur with the plain cause of you being lack of creativity? You attempt prosing your words in sophisticated words (Words, not sentences and not paragraphs. Just words extracted from dictionary.com I reckon, which needs no sentence structuring as long as the blur of the term's meaning clouds your mind; and you trying too earnestly hard appears fake and probably is.) My advice to you in layman terms: Get a life and live it to the fullest with your own capability and ability. Don't give your foes a reason to mock and jeer at your backsets.

Layman enough for you? Or do you need it translated in Singlish?

//

Marina Mandarin. Last.

District lights immense from the contrast of the still dark night. Cloaked with discomfort, it was as if I was chambered in ice. Fatigue was soon found to paralyse remaining streaks of efficience. The visible began closing in on the vision her pupils could gather.

Dancing neon simmered to a gradual silhouette of colours, the pitch in its black enveloped the world that wrapped around her. Inexplicable myriad of stirrings within the sculpt of her self caused murmuring whimpers to engage.

Hush now, hush. May solitude stand by you, my delicate china in the rough. Fear not love, for your fervent ranger is with you right here.

Bugis, Arab Street, Suntec City, Geylang Serai.

Singapore has numerous places for us to discover, which is why we local junkies should not complain about the lack of touring facilities in this nation unless we ourselves are lacking of heritage interests.

To begin, we lunched at Bugis' Macdonalds since my partner was craving for fast food, topping up with Chocolate Fondues for dessert. The oozing chocolate was near heavenly. The weather was pouring on our plans to head for the National Library, so we hitched a cab down to Arab Street. Why? Because my sister highly recommended that place for me to visit since I was such a shopperholic for earrings. The products there were considered costly (me being el cheapo) but exotic. There were desolated alleys in the area and it was an ideal spot for 'emo' photo-taking. Discovering nothing new there, we took a choice of riding down to Suntec to catch a movie.

After which, dusk already sought landing, and it was finally time for us to head for Geylang Serai. Fabulous shopping haven. I am referring to the pre-Hari-Raya-frenzy. A 3 bus-stop-long purchasing arena having earrings(hundreds of racks hanging vintage wears), necklaces (bohemian is everywhere!), food, fabrics, bags and purses (clutches, handbags, slingbags, 'mat'bags, etc) and other cool stuff. Can you imagine the ecstatic state I was in in visually absorbing all my favourite kinds of shopping goods (very cheap at that)?

I am definitely making another trip to Geylang Serai and buy as many dazzling earrings, shades and purses/bags as I can. This is what economical shopping is all about.

Home sweet home, we say at the end of every bustling day.

Dipped in elatedness to discover that my age-stained passport is fit for travelling.

I'm tattooed under your skin, a label of infinite announcement. C.

A pointing finger of lightning fires down from the sky, and the aroma of drizzles penetrate into the candle-and-lavendar-aromatherapy ambience, scattering new moods to sway with the jazz numbers. The flames dance a waltz according to the pattern of breeze occurences, and the tangerine-brown pomeranian lazes with its opal eyes gradually closing into the relaxation of a nightfall as such. Impeccable. Substitution, void of possibility.

A voyage of mild happiness lights the wick of our souls, just as this very night showers us remembrances of subtle joy. A wavering quiet descends around us like a mother protecting her child.

Safe in this crazy world, you keep me.

Period's arrival is inching closer, and aunt agony is agonised by constant grumpiness and incessant moodswings. In addition, a fraction of my gums is inflamed and swollen, chipping into the swinging. Apart from that, the sore throat is soring the freedom of type of food intake. Pouring bitter cooling(herbal) tea down my throat and it's torturous but it's unavoidable.

On a lighter note, I will be opening a stall in the Flea Market at Tampines Block 385, at the void deck this Sunday 16/10/05 (they have been holding flea markets at the void deck of that block for two years and I've only discovered it recently). I will be selling second-hand goods such as woman accessories, clothing (man and woman). Be sure to visit if you're nearby. I have heaps of soft toys to give away; anyone keen in taking up the offer? Flea market are abundant in Singapore lately, and being el cheapo, it's just irresistible.

Owning curls has taught me that butches haven't been having an easy time dealing and sculpting their hair all the time (I don't pity guys because they simply do not deserve pity). I am beginning to fall in love with myself.

Nique: If you are on Fear Factor (the reality show) and the prize was a million dollars - pi sai (nose shit) and dandruff, which would you choose to eat?
Cheryl: Pi sai
Nique: (Bursts into an outrageous fit of hysterical laughter)
Nique: I think I would choose dandruff. It's only skin.
Cheryl: Well, show me the money! (Ripped off quote and tone from Tom Cruise in Jerry Maguire)

Just keying in random thoughts so spare me today's drama.

Advanced Global Personality Test Results Extraversion 56% Stability 16% Orderliness 56% Accommodation 36% Interdependence 56% Intellectual 30% Mystical 36% Artistic 83% Religious 70% Hedonism 56% Materialism 83% Narcissism 56% Adventurousness 56% Work ethic 63% Self absorbed 70% Conflict seeking 50% Need to dominate 70% Romantic 63% Avoidant 36% Anti-authority 43% Wealth 36% Dependency 63% Change averse 63% Cautiousness 63% Individuality 70% Sexuality 50% Peter pan complex 70% Physical security 70% Physical Fitness 30% Histrionic 76% Paranoia 63% Vanity 70% Hypersensitivity 83% Female cliche 76%

Stability results were very low which suggests you are extremely worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.

Orderliness results were moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly organized, reliable, neat, and hard working at the expense of flexibility, efficiency, spontaneity, and fun.

Extraversion results were moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity.


Trait snapshot:
Paranoid tendencies, irritable, anxious, fidgety, dependent, worrying, emotionally sensitive, prone to regret, depressed, second guesses self, somewhat fragile, dislikes change, prefers organized to unpredictable, suspicious, phobic, craves attention, not a risk taker, low self control, very sensitive to criticism, unadventurous, does not make friends easily,


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Mixtape
You say hello
Inside I'm screaming I Love You
You say goodnight
In my mind I'm sleeping next to you
You drive away
From my car crash of a heart
And I don't know

But you gave me the best mixtape I have
And even all the bad songs ain't so bad
I just wish there was much more than that
About me and you

You talk to him
And it burns me like the sun
You talk to her
You say that you feel that he's the one
I talk to me
But you can't hear the pain I feel
You don't know

Don't turn around and say bye again
It crushes my head when you call me
Your friend and I'm not the same person
From back in the day in the back of the class
That you thought was gay
No I can't find the words cause I lost them
The minute they fell out of my mouth
And it's love and I'm in it, so give me your lips
And just let me kiss em
And let's get messed up and listen to possibly

The best mixtape I have
And even all the bad songs ain't so bad
I just wish there was more than that
About me and you

A day ago, I posted a bulletin on Friendster which was taken from Anny due to the itching idle taking its wear on me. In return, a butch virtual-mailed me a a message. Here goes, the bulletin I published and following up, the message she sent:

Bulletin:

Cherale wrote:
> Message: repost this and in the subject write:
>
> GREEN: If your single and ready to
> mingle
>
> YELLOW: If you like someone
>
> RED: If you're taken
>
> BLUE: If you're taken BUT aren't
> committed (still
> talk to others)
>
> PINK: If there is someone you really like,
> and are
> hoping they will ask you out.
>
> WHITE: If you're in love...
>
> PURPLE: If you like being single
>
> ORANGE: if ur single n u hate it with a
> passion
>
> GRAY: If ur HeartBroken
>
> CHECKERED: If ur Cheating someone
>
> BROWN: taken but not in touch with them
> alot
>
> BLACK:if u want someone you can never
> have
>
> *this game has hooked up many lovers so
> dont
> mess it up! who knows maybe you'll get
> lucky- you
> animal!*
>
> *repost this within 10 min or you'll end up
> old and
> alone.*

The Message:

Hahaha, ur question very long and abit Funny !!
anywhere i dunnoe what is that ?? sori, i say Hi, to
u... mmmm... i dunnoe how u noe me.. ? but
anywhere im feel very happy cos u can talk to me
here... : ) well, me !! accturry u can call
me "AnDie" but somethig is happen to this name,
soo "AnDie" is over, then u can just call me "Lee".
then if u 1 to noe me more then that, then u want
then u can just SMS me.... just gv u my hp
no, "9*******(NUMBER DISCLOSED)" anywhere u r very young for me,
me 30 le, but if be frns is o.kie lah... : ) then....
dunnoe say what again, .......... ???? ur turn ask
lah.. : )

Yes you're right, I broke into a fit of guffaws. Isn't a powerful hold of English the trend of late?

Memory is paradise denied.

A shout of guffaw piqued my attention that reality was closing in my breaths on me. Numerous speculating tongues yet no empathy. Bouts of melancholia is absorbing into overwhelming emotions and positivity is untraceable. This state that shuffles leaves of thoughts has landed me stupefied. Won't you care now?

The stall next to mine retailing bohemian necklaces only gained sales from one customer - me; a whooping $7 bargained to $5.50. I had a chunkful of soft toys to load off my cupboards, and still have wasted space full of them to dispose of.

Oh Niquey you're so fine, you're so fine you blow my mind.

Remember those passion-embedded eyes;
Retreated from frost and burned down the ice
Ululating cries hushed to a tone of a hummingbird
Felicity marred all negativity surged
Engulfed in porcelain physicality we were
Like two blooming youths, lusted by sexual atmosphere
The lies, sailing their sails away
Alas, our eyes gazed a sway
Spinning around cajoling senses
Sex, lust, passion and void of defenses
Embellished, is a new old chronicle
Delighted senses awakened and unfurled

Acute joy imbibes into clouds of memory and eager spirits enthuse with soaring anticipation of felicity. Appetite for enjoyment turns ravenous as the days, hopefully glisten with fervent hope like today. Time gets telescoped by sprinting moments, but memories, ample to stretch eternities.