It is easy, to churn adjective after adjective, describing how the inner mind lives its days. What isn't simple is how to stop conjuring words and start drilling into actions. The level of extreme difficulty faced, when your mind echoes louder than your heart.

A daily dosage of Coldplay is the temporary cure to my incessant mental probing. Tomorrow, I will purchase my first legal pack of cigarettes; no other escape route for now.