Happy 2nd monthsary darling!

too many more ahead my beloved ,lovely sweetheart. :) :) :)

I love you.

Bobby

1202

Happy second monthsary. Two months that felt like years with you. To more ahead, to you, to me, to us.

I love you sweetheart.

Moments like these.

They are our sources of perseverence.

This sings my suicide.

Where are we?
What the hell is going on?
The dust has only just began to form crop circles in the carpet, Sinking... Feeling...
Spin me 'round again and rub my eyes;
This can't be happening.
When busy streets a mess with people
Would stop to hold their heads heavy

Hide and Seek
Trains and sewing machines
All those years;
They were here first.

Oily marks appear on walls
Where pleasure moments hung before
The takeover, the sweeping insensitivity of this still life

Hide and Seek
Trains and sewing machines (Oh, you won't catch me around here)
Blood and tears (huh) they were here first.

Mm what you say
Oh that you only meant well, well of course you did
Mm what you say
Mm that it's all for the best, of course it is
Mm what you say
Hmm that it's just what we need, you decided this (we, you)
Mm what you say
Hmm what did she say?

Ransom notes keep falling out your mouth
Mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut outs (paper word cut outs)
Speak no feeling no I don't believe you (I don't buy it)
You don't care a bit you don't care a bit

You don't care a bit (Hide and Seek)
You don't care a bit, no
You don't care a bit
Mm, no, you don't care a bit
You don't care a bit
You don't care a bit

It has been a long time since i've posted an entry.
didnt have the inspiration to, and also because i realised all my entries so far have been nothing but assurance.

well not that i dont like to be assuring but, its probably time i need to pen something about cherishing everything i have now and being thankful for all, instead of proclaiming that everything's gonna be fine.

Simple entry this is, but i am going to get this point across.

No assuring words today, no "I love YOUs" and will be there for u no matter what for today <- well dont get me wrong here cause u know i do.

Every little thing that happened, happens for a reason. I am glad we are together in this.I am glad we able to overcome everything that has thus presented to us so far dauntingly. In a way i have been strangely glad that we have faced so many difficult obstacles together because it tells me one thing that our love is strong.

And to sign off this entry, i m going to post the lyrics of this beautifully written song.

Jason Mraz feat. Colbie Caillat - Lucky :

Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my (Darling)
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my (Darling)
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

PS: The lyrics aint complete because i changed a word to make it Us.

I am sure you know which it is Darling.

I love you.




Bobby.
1128pm

Lip service isn't cheap. It's fucking free.

"You’re in a car with a beautiful boy, and he won’t tell you that he loves you, but he loves you. And you feel like you’ve done something terrible, like robbed a liquor store, or swallowed pills, or shoveled yourself a grave in the dirt, and you’re tired. You’re in a car with a beautiful boy, and you’re trying not to tell him that you love him, and you’re trying to choke down the feeling, and you’re trembling, but he reaches over and he touches you, like a prayer for which no words exist, and you feel your heart taking root in your body, like you’ve discovered something you didn’t even have a name for."

Christmas in July. Whispy aired mornings laced with good ol' lingers of cigarette trails, earl grey with the cereal spoon warmly dipped within, unpacked luggages and unfinished loot, and the unmade sheets of yesternights. Day has hatched wide open at noon now and the pale undivided skies personify the large stomach of people dawdling their Saturdays below them. The gradual winds drape the atmosphere like clothes I see out my windows swaying from lines. Streets and sidewalks sink in looks of abandonment, schools too.

In every card and scene and wordplay, there is you and there you are. Wherever I am, you're the beautiful part of the ache. And you are my everyday's Christmas mornings.

Actually, it matters not where we tread and trade. We just need to breathe the same air together. We heal everyday. I'm healing day by day. And you, Bobby, are the biggest part of my recovery.

So here it is, our little run-and-getaway, from me and Bobby. Those 4 days 3 nights felt like a living honeymoon actualizing. Maybe that's what it feels like being married. He had a fever on the first night and I took care of him and to my delight, he got back into a pinker state of health in hours' time. He took care of me the last night, when I was being the biggest bitch ever. My point is, we took great care of each other.

These are all I have to showcase for now. The rest are in Bobby's camera.

The airport runway.
Pretty good calamari.

Darn good picture of the sight-seeing.


Fancy girly cakes



We could literally see the full scene of the skies from wherever we were.
It looks like a dormant volcano somehow!





I love you, Bobby. (:

Fortunate.
Blissed.
Thankful.
What else can i say?

I cherish every little moments being with you. so indulged into our own world of lovey dovey, crazy wacky moods that never fails to set the mood alight with the Lios.

Father Lio was utterly funny and totally himself man.i so honestly tell u. I can foresee Bobby B being so ever himself too is a mould in the making of Daddy Lio. haha

Ever so kembang and manja-ing. i honestly feel so glad that Darling's family appreciates and accepts me. Even a word like Dupont can be pronounced as Dumex or Dupex or DUREX, doesnt stop me from loving this great gift that has bestowed to me.

Lio Shu Yi, i aint gonna say much, i aint gonna tell the whole world thru this blog, that how much i love u,
or....
compose u the best written piece of romantic novel that can enthrall u.
but yes u do know that i love u wholeheartedly.
and to tell u how much i do, i aint gonna pen it in words.
i shall let a picture tell everything, because a simple picture tells more than a thousand words.



For that, Cheryl Lio, i am ready to walk with you to the endless horizon.
:)

Bobby.
1152H

"I talk to you as I talk to my own soul," he said, turning me to face him. He reached up and cupped my cheek, fingers light on my temple. "And Sassenach," he whispered, "Your face is my heart".

I can never compose to literate the intensity of thoughts evoked, but hoping this would do, I'll tell you, "what hurts the most was to realise how greatly I've hurt you, one I love". I'll do my best to be strong, so that you'll never have to be weak alone; I'll do my best to keep my two feet together sturdy onto the ground, so that I will be the gravity that holds you from floating into disillusions; I'll love you more than three words could ever paint pictures of pretty skies and rainbows, so that heart of yours will never love alone. I will not mark a single quiet promise to you. I am the promise itself. And as long as you live to be the faith that I seek the light from, I will be it.

I deeply apologise for not voicing out the words as often as I feel them or express it aloud the constant missing that has been felt this whole time, because I do. And maybe, I'm a bigger blockhead at demolishing defences than you are. I'm not ready to risk everything to a plunge cave justifying with my worldly reasons, but I know that you love me, enough to make time a motivating factor, in optimistic hope that these brick walls don't stand this stubborn as each loving day passes.

For everything, the good and the not-so-goods, I am thankful and I love you true.

Time just comes to a standstill.
Lying beside you
In your arms
Content seems to be an understatement

As we watch time pass us by
Clock ticking past quicker when happier times r always here
I ve learnt to not be fearful of gd times passing quick
Rather cherishing every moment that we spent together

I ve tore your heart this morning
I made u cry a river of misery tears for me
I am sorry

But I know every tear you shed, every pain you endured
is for the love of me
for the goodwill of mr swell

I cant promise you I can make you the happiest person
I cant promise you I can let you feel most loved compared to other loving couples
But I can give you my word,my life, my dignity,my man's ego,

That I am here to stay
Residing ever in your sanctuary
Sheltering me from the hustles and harsh environment the world can be

I love you more than the tea I can ever prepare for you in this lifetime
more than 49023480986 oranges slices i can feed you with after every meal
More than the laughter I can ever tease you with my cheesy antics

And.......

should you can stand not my silly idiotic, ass ways,
..

There's a rock at the end of the page.
Boys are stupid.
Throw rocks at them.

Kiss and make up after that :)

I loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee you Lio Shu Yi, my limbo shoemaker yakker

Bobby
0954H

"What is it Cady? What is it that you see?'

At first she didn't move and at moment I feared that I had lost her forever. She blinked and turned her head toward me and gave me that last look which I will never forget. At last, with a hopelessness in her voice, she spoke.

'I see a lifetime stretching out before me. Just right there it flows...bursting out unending forever. It leaves me in waves and I see it everywhere, just flowing around. There's a lifetime in that sunset, a key to a far off place. And I try to reach out to it, I try to grasp it with my finger tips. But I can't reach out far enough. I want to be mad at it, to move and force it to me, but I can't. How could I ever be mad at something so beautiful?'

'But Cady you can't touch the sun, it's not possible for it to be yours.'

But at that she wiped her tears from her eyes and was gone. She was lost to me forever."

Rest happy and in the arms of peace, Marion.

Yours, best friends now till forevermore,
Cheryl

Shattered.

Bobby
0111H

Shed those tears no more. Smear your pretty eyes no longer. Our time may have came and went, but I'll be here for you, no matter what. I won't care any less, only because I couldn't.

Its a fruitful tuesday!

popped by darling's place in the morning to surprise her with tuna puffs and almond biscuits. it was so good that poom the baby drooled all over the floor and my jeans. 

pity mrs darling didnt show openly how happy she was in me doing that.

as u see mrs swell, i m a naturally a blockhead. taurean, a slow learner can really be damn slow in picking up things, but they never give up. once they do master the skill, they will never forget. i wouldnt say its a demand or sth, but for a dumbblock like me, seeing someone responding or expressing happiness in the things i do, effort i put in to make them happy, keeps me happy. simple man i am huh. haha

Then it was Macbeth.

Awesome plot i must say, though the poetic lines throughout the whole play was profound, as in u dont see singaporean using that kind of words and phrases to converse, it naturally is difficult to figure out what they are saying. but full points for their actions and expressions. their eyes were as though talking thru the vacuum,telling us , as well as the 'demons' that demonstrated their acrobats and shushing like gollum in LOTR, beautiful. 

although the props section as well as their dressing could have been better.

nevertheless gd play.

i think i m becoming a real artsy fartsy person soon.

caught like 2 plays in a space of 3 days. 

caught june's at her sch on sunday, followed by this. i m indeed realising my potential as a true blue taureans who appreciate art in its truest form haha. gonna go out sailing tmr, will miss my mrs sally swell badly. but no worries i have the wkends to look forward to spending with :) 

and of course the foto that i m gonna upload in my cell to remind me of the beautiful u.

lets stop doubting. lets stop hiding. lets not waste another time being cold to each other. i really wanna spend every single moment embracing u, holding u, hugging u, kissing u, and calling u mine when we r together. not being cold to each other and missing us only when we dont see each other.

i am committed in this. i m yours to cherish solely. treasure my fragile heart like u've never before. possess me like u want it to be. just dun let doubts break us.

I love you Lio Shu Yi! Next up sat chilli crabs session! yeeha!

Just what my heart felt as flat as a dime, you demonstratively marked up the worth that I carry in yours. These smiles I adorn, they aren't pasted and I'm becoming them as each passing day counts down to the day when a future does get named "us". The seas of people's faces melt away as your words bind me down the most incredible envisions that walk us down this lifetime. My gazes would never be casted unto another. Shaming apologies could never amount the sorryness of my marring of perfection. To strive to be of infinite flawnessness, I do not attempt or dare to, but in an orb that all that my might and abilities can showcase, my best is all I will freely give. And so, when my best and your best collide, our best at loving will satiate us until hairs turn gray.

I search no longer and I will be at the bus stop. I'll see you soon.

Yours lovingly, truly, and always,

Deliah

It hurts that you're always casting a doubt in everything i do.

It hurts that ur always thinking that i am never putting enough effort

It hurts that whenever we hit a rough patch u have doubts in this relationship.

It hurts that u could just turned ur back on me and left without a single word.

It hurts that all ur assumptions of me is always negative.

Tears kept flowing last night.Switched off my cell because i was just too broken by ur texts, mired by doubts.And to think you could easily have dismissed myself of sleeping.Where is the trust u said u have in me? 

The hour nap caught at 7 brought me even more fear n tears.the dream of u leaving me with another guy jus drown my sleep with tears. 

You can never imagine how serious i am about you. 

I am never expressive the way u wanted me to be.

But you know i dont do regrets.

Suddenly the three words seem so hard to say now, because they i dont want to say it for the sake of saying it.

We are in this together, dont give us up. 

Hello questions, I see you're back again, riddling the forums of my complexed thoughts. But stop, please do. For what it's worth, maybe the stars and voodoos read these accurately right from the start.

Do we call this a futile fight, or one that awaits promising results?

New additions to the zoo! And excitingly cute!

Dinner at Fort Canning with the Neos and extensions.

It was suppose to be on the 31st. but poor June doesnt have 31 days. and so we chose to celebrate our first monthversary on Sunday! it WAS splendid.

But before the dear bf gonna talk about the great sunday, darling, i still think we got together on the 30th, 1154pm. the proposal was definitely not after 12 hokay!haha besides we would never face a problem of mini leap months which does not have 31 days in it. haha

It was a long wait from thurs. Two days of sailing kept us apart. Turbulence of the sea was putting our relationship into a real test.it was really a crazy moment.

however i could take some light from it for the fact that Absence does make the heart grow fonder, and NO its not whats out of sight, goes out of mind. it doesnt .

Enough said, my writing skills can never be compared to the gf's standard so i aint gonna write much but let the peektures do he talking. A picture is more than a thousand words u know.



First photo of the day: This pair of considerate Caucasian couple suggested to take a photo for us. How polite can one really get? Westerners are really refined pple i must say, they do go for the extra mile. unlike boorish pple in the East. I am way glad we both belong more to the english cultured.



Apparently it tells me two things from this photo. either the gf is too embarrassed to be on the camera, or probably that i smell too gd that she's unable to resist. hahaha. okay the former one, before i get tickled by her again. You're so adorable Lio Shu Yi.



Okay, cant find a lame reason for it, but maybe it was jus the right place at the right time that the kiss was planted, BY HER. not me! it wasnt me hahaha. thick skinned.

Okay i think my style of writing has deteriorated so bad that i m writing and posting peektures like a kid.

but who cares. writing like that goes to show that i am happy as a kid, eager to show off my happiness of it. agree darl?



Okay this foto basically reinforced the point of me behaving like a kid. hugging this plant cropped giraffe like a kid who holds on to his toy dearly. well at least it goes to show that i value my prized possessions dearly. just like the gift of Lio Shu Yi, bestowed to me. :) your the laughing pills in my medicine box, you complete me darling.


What a cute pony it is huh, you know i would have stolen the pony n stashed it in my car boot had u asked for it. talking abt being crazy. i am crazy about u darling.


Would i be flirting with mrs alligator in front of my mrs swell? perhaps?haha NOT. toying with danger huh.whats more in front of the gf haha. gd random shot of it. thumbs up darl!


its a splendid photo. demure, sweet and ever so wanting. ur the light of my life.


Meet mr squirrel. apparently darling loves them so much that she flooded the camera with lots of pictures of them,snapping their burrows,them sneaking up n chew their food, upclose shot of their tummy n furry tails haha. lovely

Ok amidst all the busy moments of tryin to blog this out and uploading of the photo, out pops a notification from my facebook. Opened it and to my pleasure, friends' comment just came pouring, making envious comments on how sweet our photos are, how awesome possum compatible we r as a couple, and congratulate me in finding the love of my life. Thank you darling, i guess i do not have to say, my frens' can vouch for that, seeing me ALL so happy for once in my damn 22 yrs of life. You truly complete me.


I shall sign off with this beautiful photo of Us. I made a promise with the Great one, that i am going do the best i can to protect u, to shower u with the best of love, pamper u like never before and love u like no words can ever describe. You brought happiness to my life. you made me, me. I am truly grateful to have you with me, i m contented.
Give me your hand, trust me, let me allay all your fears, and walk with me thru this journey of, Our life.

Love,
Bobby
11.11pm