Because if it's not hurting, it isn't love.

There is just so much to do to be wasting zeal on emotions from being alone. There are tests and studying, council commitments, upcoming birthdays, a pending divorce that isn't mine but is a weight I have to shoulder, and so much happiness to be regained. I don't know how important it is whether loneliness plays a colossal part of all these sacrifices, all I know is that I need to be happy, and being happy is all I will immerse my utter concerns in working towards.

I hope you'll be a part of this chapter, that soothes the loneliness because being with you seems to be the only thing that eradicates any form of emptiness that fills this cup. I hope that you will see through my lens. And I hope, that you will love me.