What a fucking bitch she is.
You know who you are.
Stop hesitating to point e finger to yourself.
Acting like a friend now.
Low down petty revengeful slut.
Fuck e hell outta my life PLEASE.
If you are trying to break me and her up,
Give it up slut.
Are you happy we almost broke cause of you?
Fuck u.
Thanks for FUCKING hurting me again alright?
You never really loved her enough to care much for her you slut.
Ret if you read this you may hate me,
I won't say anything to hold you back cause she is your good friend.
I feel it.
I'm not that feelingless.
YOU said that if she were to leave me then she doesnt deserve me.
Stop changing your stories.
They never tallied.

Best friend came over today.
Think she had fun listening to my momma's stories.
Mom helped her with her eyebrows and hair as well.
Alot of people complimented that it was nice.
After that went shopping for at least 3 hours with her.
Bought earrings body-glitter bangles and film.
Had a beautifully happy day,
Until it was all almost over between me and Her.
Fucking hurts that I'm feeling almost lost within myself now.

I can't lose you.
Not ever?
Dear if you see this,
Go see our blog as well k?

You slut.

Had clay fight with Chuwen Anjules and Krys today during Art.
Anju and I were bullying Chups.
Stellia ganged up with us to bully her.
Then later we had Ding ding dang dang dong dong quizzes.
Anjules accidentally set her chair on my toesies,
But they didn't hurt.
I finally got my top!!!!
Bought from Li Lao Shi's shop.
A halter like formal top,
2 pairs of contact lenses costing me $2 a pair,
AND.......
Friendship day's presents!!
Jeff promised me at least 5 photo shots with her.
Hopefully I'm meeting Di on that day to go the theatre.
Went out with Wanping today.
Can say that today has been quite entertaining after school.
Not going school on tues wed and thurs.
All planned out perfectly.
So...
Will it be EP or clubbing?
Will feel very extra at EP I think.
I don't even know what the plan is and yet it is going on.
All the couples there,
And some with their cliques,
Me?
Maybe with Anjula or noone?

Glad to have gotten your call after a long day today dear.
Missed you while talking to you on the phone just now.
Have fun tomorrow with your long lost friend k?
I won't mind =)



i looked into her eyes and she's all i see...

Joannca's coming over soon.
Did tuition homework since 2 weeks ago and she's only coming over today.
Pretty excited about wednesday and friday.
Firstly wednesday is the long-awaited for EMDD!
Haven't shopped for it though.
Going shopping with wanping tomorrow hopefully
-crosses fingers-
Secondly Friday's KC friendship day.
My last ever friendship day in KC.
Gonna shop like hell for all my darlings in school.
Decided to pon school on tues and wed.
How 'well' planned
Lemme do a count ;
12 weeks to O levels,
10 days to Our first month anniversary,
3 more days to EMDD,
5 more days to Kc friendship day.
And haven't got a clue how many days to prelims.
About a month I think -shrugs-

Dear I miss you.
Wonder what day I'll be seeing you again this week.
Sorry for making you feel the way you felt last night.
I love you~
*huggles*

*you're my sunshine

[In the afternoon] -
Nothing much today.
Today's more neutral than yesterday,
Neutral to the extent of feeling bored.
Soft drizzles on and off today,
Nice weather to day dream and stone.
Slacking at home when I'm supposed to be frantically rushing through my dress colour schemes.
Was looking at the picture that I borrowed of halloween party in sec 2.
I miss #10.

We never said good byes but it was an unspoken recognition.
It was goodbye,
Till we meet again.

[Later in the evening]
Brought baby to bedok resevoir to jalan.
She chewed on a toad and started foaming from the mouth.
Later she started pukin so bad.
My sister found it so amusing that the situation became so bad that she couldn't stop laughing,
Although I didn't find it a single bit funny.
Now,
Luckily for me she's resting comfortably in my arms,
Perfectly fine.
Conclusion today ; No more toads for baby ever in her life.



Sometimes someone says something really small, and it fits right into this empty place in your heart

Watched Alex & Emma today,
Not nice.
Read wanping's blog,
Haiz didn't know I was tormenting her this way.
Feeling guilty...
Went town today to shop actually,
But dear was this late and delay dalee till I didn't have any spare time to shop.
Ret Jinga and Di went for their Threading session today.
Ret and Di cried painfullly man.
Quite a neutral day today.
Today 4/1 brought ALOT of photos.
And class photos were out today and ready for orders.
The formal one looked nice,
The rest sucked cause I looked bad!
But it's just for the fun it I guess =)
Today's basically slack day in school.
30 weeks more to O level examinations.
-quivers-

||Neoprint of me and Dear || Modified picture of me and Marion ||


I need you now and tomorrow and the day after and the day after the day after......

Alrite think yesterday's underlined part of the post was hurtfully harsh.
Let my emotions run me wild.

Thought we were slightly better off than yesternight and then...
I saw your blog again.
Ok so you have better friends out there,
So you have friends who will be there for you whether you are right or wrong.
Go then.
You said you didn't want to end up like you and Marion.
Can you help it?
Did you feel the awkwardness we felt when we tried speaking to each other today?
You were a good friend and will always be.
And I truly hope we will be the Friends we were before.
But you saw friendship in others,
Not in me.
I pray that hopefully things will better in the next few days.

To #34 : I don't know why you promise when you can never keep them.
Yes duh I get jealous when you did what you did last night.
Are you insensitive or am I insensitive?

#17 Will I see you again? All the tears i cried no matter how hard i try They'll never bring you home to me Won't you wait for me in heaven? #10

Jullie passed on today.
Friggin' car.
I curse you you asshole whoever you are.
She just laid there lifelessly at the pavement with her blood stained on the pavement.
Life's cruelty.
But I'm sure she's happier wherever she is now.

Hey yeah I'm pointing out to You!
What makes you think you're a perfect friend and I should actually look up to you as an example of a good friend?
Do I nod my head to YOU two timing someone who loves you and someone whom you Claim you love?
Come on Jinyu..
A true friend,
Are you even one?
You come and go as and when you like.
I've hurt you upteen times?
Haven't You?
You've made me search my soul SO many times but have YOU searched yours?
You overestimate yourself gal.
Thinking that the whole world would be hard up for you.
You're missing out on loads of facts in life.
You started the war.
Now no matter what whoever's gonna do this war WILL prolong.
Thanks alot 'Friend'.
And..
Shouldn't She have the right to know the mess you've created outside?
You did her wrong,
I did her wrong.
Admit it..
I'm partially at fault,
But stop being a friggin' childish senseless lamer by acting as the Angel Friend.
You're not.

To my sista June : You promised! THURS!

A friend turned foe?

Look into my eyes
You will see
All you mean to me
Search your heart
Search your soul
When you're finally there you'll search no more
Don't tell me it's not worth trying for
You can't tell me it's not worth dying for
You know it's true
Everything I do
I do it for You

Look into my heart
You will find
There's nothing there to hide
Take me as I am
Take my life
I would give it all I would sacrifice
Don't tell me it's not worth fighting for
I can't help it there's nothing I want more
Yeah know it's true
Everything I do
I do it for you

There's no love
Like your love
And no other
Could give more love
There's nowhere
Unless you're there
All the time
All the way

Don't tell me it's not worth trying for
I can't help it there's nothing I want more
I would fight for you
I'd lie for you
Walk the wire for you
Yeah I'd die for you

Yeah know it's true
Everything I do
I do it for you

Didn't go school today.
Refuse to run 2.4km for nothing.
Tuition homework's helluva lot to finish.
Slept late last night though was tired.
But couldn't get to sleep cause was anxious to get e reply from her.
Anjula told me about her having this strong feeling that majority of Us would turn the straight path eventually,
All except her.
Baby wanted to get into Dad's car so bad she was crying at the carpark.
She's just too adorably lovable and irresistable to love.
It is these little things which adds to one's life's history book.
These things which remain in your memories vividly for the rest of your life.
I'm referring to my dog in the last four lines by the way in case you didn't know.
Once again I decided to invade into Wanping's blog.
Didn't know she was this sentimental.
Wondering why we never worked out.
But I am happy where I stand now,
So the guilt in me will just have to be imprisoned in me like unbrushable crimes.
Listening to some songs can sure make you darn emotional and sentimental (aw man i love bryan adams!)
Uncontrollably the memories come rushing into your mind.
And you end up unable to stop thinking of the things you have and haven't done in life,
The regrets the pain the joy the happiness,
Everything.

I lay on my bed
Thinking of the words you said
My life saw light
Knowing you were by my side
You told me you felt down
Wished I could be there to rest on my hands gently on yours
And tell you everything was alright
For all the wishes I have made for you
I wish for you to be happy
Loving anyone isn't easy
But these hard moments pulled through would make us stronger than before
Every moment with you
I wish could be eternity
Let's not wait for loving
Let it come
Please forgive me
For I onced judged you for what you were
Believe in me
I'll stand by your side no matter what you do
Every word I say is true
And I truly truly love You =)

You take me off my feet, you blow me away...

It still feels like our first night together
Feels like the first kiss
It's getting better baby
No one can better this
Still holding on
You're still the one
First time our eyes met
Same feeling I get
Only feels much stronger
I wanna love you longer
Do you still turn the fire on?

So if you're feeling lonely, don't
You're the only one I'll ever want
I only want to make it go
So if I love you a little more than I should ...

Please forgive me, I know not what I do
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you
Don't deny me, this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me, if I need you like I do
Please believe me (Oh believe it), every word I say is true
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you

Still feels like our best times are together
Feels like the first touch
Still getting closer baby
Can't get closer enough
Still holding on
You're still number one
I remember the smell of your skin
I remember everything
I remember all the moves
I remember you yeah
I remember the nights, you know I still do

So if you're feeling lonely, don't
You're the only one I'll ever want
I only want to make it go
So if I love you a little more than I should ...

Please forgive me, I know not what I do
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you
Don't deny me, this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me, if I need you like I do
Please believe me, every word I say is true
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you

The one thing I'm sure of
Is the way we make love
The one thing I depend on
Is for us to stay strong
With every word and every breath I'm praying
That's why I'm saying

Please forgive me, I know not what I do
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you
Don't deny me, this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me, if I need you like I do
Babe believe it, every word I say is true
Please forgive me, if I can't stop loving you
No, believe, I don't know what I do
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you

I can't stop ... loving you ...

Got blisters from new shoe today.
Apparently my feet are sized 6 already.
Went shopping with over twenty bucks,
Before I even begun shopping I'm left with 4 bucks.
Good lordy!

Loving you knocked my senses awake.
Now I'm afraid to ever lose You.
It isn't happening now,
But I'm fearful.
You make my heart melt,
You make my knees go weak,
You turn me all gaga,
Nothing's ever perfect but at least I know we're trying for perfection.
All that matters now is that I have You,
And that You have me.

**_It's not in the loving, it's in the giving

I love you || 17 & 34 || uoy evol I

Loads of homework to rush through.
Defied Wanping and read her blog.
Feeling guilty...
Trying to figure out what went wrong between us in the past but couldn't find anything that actually flawed.

Last night wasn't pleasant at all either.
Dear smsed me late the night before telling me things I never expected to hear from her.
She thought about her past and her most recent past - 81.
Girl it tore me apart knowing you weren't sure of whatever you have said since we went together.
No longer am I that cassanova.
We both know what it feels like to cry.
But why are these tears released out of melancholy?
Didn't you promise so much in the letter?
I haven't any idea how many hearts I have broken already,
But yours ain't gonna be one of them.
Trust me kies?
Love you darling *muackiex*

**__you're much better than you think