If I had the hands of a poet,
I'd write a flawless neverending poem just for you,
and broadcast it to the whole world that I'd do anything just for you to feel this way too.
If I had the makings of a sculpture,
the masterpiece of you I'd be working on would never be finished,
because such an overwhelming artwork could not be possible to mould.
If I had to holler to the world how much I love you,
the universe would be impaired.

If I could carry your smile anywhere I turned to,
I would forever be grateful,
for such radiance would sweep me off my feet.
If I could reach the skies for you,
I'd stretch till eternity for you just for that huge leap.

If I was told that I would depart from the face of this world,
you'd be the last person I'd bid farewell to,
the person I've been so deliriously crazy into.
If I had a very last day with you,
the last day would be the day till time halts,
till my breath has been lifted up from me,
because I couldn't live without a love this true.

God whispered to me that things were going to be sorted out fine,
fine is when you are right by my side,
fine will be the day you love me.

Never would I want to dwell in the darkness of what's become of Us,
everything that has been distorted I want them back in place.
Endlesslly I'll be needing you,
and endlessly I pray you'll be needing me too.

Your gentle touch.
Your lips against mine.
Your passion burning in me.
Your addictive fragrance.
Your name blinking on my phone.
Your childlike ways.
Your Love.
Everything about you is what I can never do without.

Been running from these feelings for so long
Telling my heart I didn't need you
Pretending I was better off alone
But I know it's just a lie
So afraid to take a chance again
So afraid of what I feel inside

But I need to be next to you
I need to share every breath with you
I need to know I can see your smile each morning
Look into your eyes each night
For the rest of my life
Here with you near with you
Oh, I need to be next to you

Right here with you is where I belong
I'll lose my mind if I can't see you
Without you there is nothing in this life
That would make my life worth living for
I can't bear the thought of you not there
I can't fight what I feel anymore

But I need to be next to you
I need to share every breath with you
I need to know I can see your smile each morning
Look into your eyes each night
For the rest of my life
Here with you near with you
Oh, I need to be next to you

I need to be next to you
I need to have your heart next to mine
For all time
Love you for all of my life

But I need to be next to you
I need to share every breath with you
I need to know I can see your smile each morning
Look into your eyes each night
For the rest of my life
Here with you near with you
Oh, I need to be next to you


-Need To Be Next To You (Sara Evans)-

The rush of relief surged through my veins,
as you slipped your fingers between mine.
The every single and minute ways that you try to straighten the dents,
the dents that have been formed all this time.
You whispered gently in my ears,
you wanted to try calm all my fears.

I wonder, and I keep wondering.
Just how ever did you got me into this love so unwavering.
Transfigured the fundamentals of this crazy feeling into one that is complicated,
and impossible to comprehend.

Perhaps I indulged into this affair too hastily.
Too impulsive and quickly.
Now you take over me,
my whole life my everything.

And I need a favour from you,
I fervently pray you'll say you do.
Be mine forever,
Till the time ends never.

World War IV broke out last night. She got so furious she started yelling as if I planned and wanted for everything to occur and turn out the way it did. I can hardly believe my ears what I heard from her lips. Maybe they are just a bunch of excuses, just to put me off and down. Her ex got involved, which I, again, am clueless of how and why it happened. She claimed she isn't over her previous break up although she didn't love her ex anymore. Does that make any sense in any way? If I had the choice, I'd never want any of these to happen, but I guess she'd never see things in my perspective. Quarrelled till almost two, till my emotions went berserk. And I have awaken to the brand new morning with the most unpleasant memories of yesterday. There has never been a worse yesterday, till yesterday. But nevertheless I'm staying put and I don't wish to walk out on you. I'm not going to allow what I'm good at get the worst of me. Give me the opportunity to pick you up from wherever you've fallen. I've never minded doing that. I just need you to assure me that it'll work out for the better if I strive on.

Today's just a day with bad memories shunned from yesterday. It's always the case. Today's the day I become good mummy's girl and help her out at home. And I'm fully keen on doing a good job at that. I can't seem to stop blogging. Perhaps my blog's the only form of release, maybe I'd rather let loose my frustrations on something than someone. Maybe because noone really grasps what I'm trying to say when I actually do say it out.

Alright I hate to admit this, but, I'M BORED. The feeling of expecting tuition and dreading it is totally disgusting, as if I'm going to throw up anytime. Or maybe it's the sun-burns which are taking huge effects on me. My face and arms feel so much tighter than usual, and I'm rosy in the cheeks, like a clown. I have no appetite for anything due to the pain the sun-burns are causing, and all I'm thinking of is sleep. All thanks to tuition, I don't get to meet darling today. What a turn off. Tomorrow too. Mum wants me by her to run errands. Silly twit sister of mine gave me a kiss before she headed for school, while I was sleeping this morning. And I miss my darling so much.

Okay, I'm still bored.

Someone messaged my handphone early in the morning, 7+am to tell me that my girlfriend was cheating on me. And guess what, she got all her facts wrong. I did doubt initially, and thank God I didn't yield to those doubts. Anyway, went to Siloso beach today. Darling looks like a lobster now, literally, so red. All that about collar contrast (I doubt). I had to starve till around 6pm. Ate at pastamania's, ate Marinara, it was fabulous since I was practically aching from hunger. Adelyn popped up later on and darling had dessert ; chocolate mousse. Oh by the way, sister says I look Bangla now. This goes to show how successful tanning lately has been.

I give no fuck about who's reading this, not anymore, therefore I have taken away the password-access system to this blog. Read it if you wish. Comment if you must. But please, don't attempt screwing up my life, because it isn't going to work no more. Give me hardcore facts if you want me to believe, otherwise, keep the idle rumours to yourselves. I don't care if she cheats on me (not that she is), I don't care if she loves me any less than I love her (maybe she does). I'll still be here, loving her. All I want to say is, if none of this is true, don't start.

I've seen this place a thousand times
I've felt this all before
And every time you call
I've waited there as though you might not call at all

I know this face I'm wearing now
I've seen this in my eyes
And though it feels so great, I'm still afraid
That you'll be leaving anytime

We've done this once and then you closed the door
Don't let me fall again for nothing more

Don't say you love me unless forever
Don't tell me you need me, if you're not gonna stay
Don't give me this feeling, I'll only believe it
Make it real or take it all away

I've caught myself smiling alone
Just thinking of your voice
And dreaming of your touch, is all too much
You know I don't have any choice

Don't say you love me unless forever
Don't tell me you need me, if you're not gonna stay
Don't give me this feeling, I'll only believe it
Make it real or take it all away...
Yeah, yeah yeah

We've done this once and then you closed the door
Don't let me fall again for nothing more

Don't say you love me unless forever
Don't tell me you need me, if you're not gonna stay
Don't give me this feeling, I'll only believe it
Make it real or take it all away

Don't tell me you need me, if you're not gonna stay
Don't give me this feeling, I'll only believe it
Make it real, or take it all away
Take it all away, take it all away...


-Don't Say You Love Me (The Corrs)-

Supposed to go to her place but due to unforeseen circumstances, we're heading to the cinemas! Dawn Of The Dead. Heard from people that the plot of the movie sucks. After blogging I'm heading for City Hall. Baby's been so tired of late, think I'll just try to be here as much as I can. Oh yes, I realised I'm unreasonable when I'm half-awake. (This should be enough hint to anyone who tries to wake me up.) I've been having mood swings very often, so often that it's scaring almost everyone close to me.

I don't understand why you love being the limelight of anything you do. I don't understand, too, why you love poking your nose into others' affairs. Do you have that much time to attend to such trivial matters, or is it just another of your pastimes? I don't know why you say goodbye one minute, and appear at my door the next. I'm telling you now, I'm sick and tired of your nonsense. Oh, not only yours, and everyone else's too, so you won't sink into depression. And oh, did you know that you practically invaded into my life?


And forever I'll want to watch you fall asleep,
To watch you sink into slumber deep.
I'll then place my lips gently on yours,
Then place the three words from the kiss.
You'll smile because you felt it,
I'll smile because you did.
Reaching out for me you'll kiss me endlessly,
I'll feel your sweet embrace ;

This heavenly touch.

Baby, give me the strength to withstand everything alright? Nothing seems to calm the insecurities I'm fighting now. Nothing at all. How much I love you, you'll know.

And all I ever need is for You to be here.

So much for sun-tanning plans today. The sun has gone into hiding and the weather today's rather chilly. Should I just go anyway just to swim it out? Sis was pretty enthusiastic about it, she's going to be so disappointed if today's out for sun-tanning since her examinations are round the corner and there will be no time to tan in the following few weeks.

She called to ask if tunas were dolphins. She want to how silly while I'm sleeping? (There goes my singlish) I hope she'll be heading for home after work so that I can talk to her, since I'm not allowed to step out of the house today. Oh by the way, Mum already suspects she and I are together (with regards to the love bites she sponsored me with). She has two on her left-side of her neck and I have five all over mine. Pretty obvious but I managed to pull a quick one on Mum. She brought ham and cheese croissant AND her famous chicken fuilette (I hope I spelt that right). She's out with two friends, and she's going to watch Dawn Of The Dead with them (when she promised to catch it with me). She insists on watching it again with me, cause she doesn't wish for me to watch it with my friends. And I miss her so much.

Haven't met up with friends for like weeks already. I miss them.

Alright, back to the initial topic of the day:- sun tanning and swimming today?

The breaking, then the begging you to stay. I try my best to bottle up everything inside; I don't wish to increase the stress and burden you're undergoing. God, it hurts, you have no idea how much it hurts, at the slightest mention or remark of her. Blackroses and 17s. They cause the getting over to be this difficult. I saw you tear at those entries she put up, I felt your heart sink; and the unceasing jealousy returns like a gust of wind suffocating my face. The more staunch you are in breaking my heart, the more I'll be loving you. It seems you're tired of being in a relationship, but you take every chance to reminisce of her. I wonder if I will ever heave such a great impact on you. I wonder if you'll cry because you let me go, because you'd wish for me to beg you back. I really couldn't care less if I was the one pleading with you for you to come back to me. Ran through the other 17's blog, and my heart tore apart, literally. Inside it mentioned all the sweetest things you did for her, when you gave two hoots about our very own first month anniversary. I'm wondering; I'm wondering if you'll ever take the effort to go this far just to make me feel better from all this disarray. Wouldn't you love me a little more to not bear to break this poor little heart of mine? Wouldn't you come comfort me? Wouldn't you take away this bitterness I'm suffering? I'm crying inside more than it seems on the outlook, I'm greviously weeping deep within, wouldn't you see through this facade I'm veiling? I'm this dependant on your love, and I wish you understood, if only you had understood my intentions underneath this constant pressure, that I'm this smitten with you. Since the day we've been together, I've been picturing the most beautiful painting of us being together forever, but again, it's just a painting. A little bit of water(the roughs) would waver this love. You could just rip it apart, you could. My love's up, up for you. If only you grasped the depth of whatever I've said to you. In a fit of anger, you deleted all the most precious messages kept in my phone - your messages. I look at them before I sleep, literally browse through every one of them, and I read them every morning, when I awake to the morning sun. Please understand baby, that I am now, nothing without you.

A whole line of events took place today. It's Our first month being together today. Bought her this Bilabong shirt costing me $59.90, and I'm officially broke. But it was all worth it afterall, she loved the present so much that she cried. All I have is a $2 note in my wallet. Watched 50 first dates, it was one sweet movie, I'd rate it 3 stars. Went around shopping and wiping out the whole of Orchard, and I mean the whole of Orchard. That goose wants to buy a silver MontBlanc pen for $370? I so wish I could come up with that sum of money to get that for her. On the way back home (in the bus, 12), we were taking photos with my phone the whole journey. At the end of photo-taking sessions, she requested to exchange handphones all because she misses 7250. Now I can't even send a decent proper message with her phone. I miss my phone, and all its pictures!

It's been a swell one month, baby!

Happy First Month Anniversary Baby!!
I love you!
I truly do!

Heaven bent to take my hand
And lead me through the fire
Be the long awaited answer
To a long and painful fight

Truth be told I've tried my best
But somewhere along the way
I got caught up in all there was to offer
And the cost was so much more than I could bear

Though I've tried, I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I have messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...

We all begin with good intent
Love was raw and young
We believed that we could change ourselves
THe past could be undone
But we carry on our backs the burden
Time always reveals
The lonely light of morning
The wound that would not heal
It's the bitter taste of losing everything
That I have held so dear.

I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I have messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...

Heaven bent to take my hand
Nowhere left to turn
I'm lost to those I thought were friends
To everyone I know
Oh they turned their heads embarassed
Pretend that they don't see
But it's one missed step
You'll slip before you know it
And there doesn't seem a way to be redeemed

Though I've tried, I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I have messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...


-Fallen (Sarah Mclachlan)-

As I am saying good night at the end of the day,
And you are not here, but many miles away,
My heart is so empty and so lonely inside,
As I wipe away a tear I am trying to hide.

I close my eyes and try to go to sleep,
But with the sadness inside I begin to weep.
Suddenly I remember what you once said to me,
Just meet me in the stars, waiting for you I will be.

When distance tends to keep us apart,
Remember I still hold you near in my heart.
When the night together, can't be ours,
Just close your eyes and meet me in the stars.

Remembering those words, I begin to smile,
And gently close my eyes, lessening the miles.
I can see the stars, oh how beautifully arranged,
But you are not there, no hug to exchange.

I sit alone waiting, with hope in my heart,
No longer wanting to be kept apart.
Suddenly in the distance, a shadow appears,
A tear rolls down my face and the image is clear.

There is no question it is you that I see,
Waiting in the stars, just like you promised to me.
You hold out your hand as you become near,
And put it in mine saying, "I miss you, my dear."

Suddenly there's gentle music, filled with romance,
You gently pull me close, we begin to dance.
Just meet me in the stars, that is where I will be.
A special place in the stars just for you and for me.


2 more days to the first month!

If Love can truly conquer anything and everything, why isn't it conquering this biting jealousy I'm feeling? It's heartbreaking, how you so easily withdraw back the promises you made. Never in my life have I imagined to be this smitten with anyone again.

You make all things feel flawless, as if I'm dwelling in perfection when nothing is perfect. The hurt all vanishes once you begin the things you say to make up for everything. If only you understood everything that I feel for you, then maybe this suspending insecurity wouldn't even exist.

And I'll love you no matter what.

Dear You,

5 more days to a month since I've been trying to attain perfection in this relationship, only to realise - I can never be that perfect. I put on my best look all the time I'm out with you, I am my best whenever you're around. You've got me this hooked; addicted like a drug. You raise me up to the ultimatum, then cause my falls from the summit. The impact of this fall in indescribably hard, hard enough to cripple. Words could never be written or spoken; the happiness I feel whenever you're by my side. Words could also never be written or spoken; the hurt I feel whenever you threaten to wanting to be apart from me. Everything will not remain a drifting memory. Even if I'd to beg you to return to me, to stoop so low to simply just be with you, I would if I could. I think of you everytime I hear a love sappy song. Ok, I think about you all the time, and all the time I mean. There's not a tomorrow I'd fear without you here with me. Baby let's make this work, let's keep this bond. Even if tears were made out of salt, I'd cry for you. Each tear brings me closer to you, but it's not close enough, it's never close enough, until the day I know you are mine and mine to keep. Last but not least, I just want to tell you that I love you.


Love always,
Me

All I know
Is everything is not as it's sold
but the more I grow the less I know
And I have lived so many lives
Though I'm not old
And the more I see, the less I grow
The fewer the seeds the more I sow

Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try

I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness
And all the real people are really not real at all
The more I learn the more I cry
As I say goodbye to the way of life
I thought I had designed for me

Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
I'm all I'll ever be
But all I can do is try
Try

All of the moments that already passed
We'll try to go back and make them last
All of the things we want each other to be
We never will be
And that's wonderful, and that's life
And that's you, baby
This is me, baby
And we are, we are, we are, we are
Free
In our love
We are free in our love


-Try (Nelly Furtado)-

I'm so physically worn out that I can hardly even move my fingers to type. It's rest day plus tuition. I need to get my check up done; fuck the check up. Need to pay more than 20 bucks just for that fucking check up. Spend spend spend. I need a job till June 21st. Stop asking 'How've you been?'s; I've been broke, my family has. I don't know if the family has enough money to pay for all 3 years of my education in poly. She's been getting mad at me for trivial-est matters; it's tiring pacifying her. Baby don't always get angry so easily, please?

Nobody understands the hurt
Everything's contradictory
I'm redundant,
I'm redundant,
Yes I'm redundant,
To You.

Tomorrow's Baby's birthday. It's that special a date tomorrow.

It's 8:41am; one of the earliest I've been up since this long break began. It's Easter Day! The morning shines chirpily, and I love it when the sun hits against the window panes like that. It makes the morning feel happy. She's coming over later in the afternoon after work, with her friends. Yesterday she got angry with me twice; once was when Nique messaged me, another was when I had to take off for grandma's. But everything was resolved nicely (if you get what I mean =)). Hey, my course enrolment package has arrived. God knows how relieved I am. And by the way, Happy Easter Day to all!!

Lord, keep my angel.

Today we hit Palawan beach! The sun was scorching and just-nice-for-tan. My tan-lines are absolutely obvious and gorgeous. I can't wait till the next tan session. All of them were just great entertainers, especially that girly-olive (thank God she doesn't come online, else she'd slaughter me). We tanned for 4 solid hours, and imagine the tan that turned out. They didn't know where else to go after dining at mcdonalds, so they decided to accompany me to church. That silly baby didn't even dare to sit beside me, afraid that my mum would get suspicious. I got mad at her for some real petty reasons (none that I shall name), and she got angry for me for some shoot-back reasons.

Oh ya, did I mention that I bought her a scapular and a silver cross? She loved it. Her shirt has it hung onto it. Baby makes me feel appreciated, and I love to feel appreciated =)

Tomorrow's Good Friday. Pretty quick and this whole procedure will re-begin all over again. She and her friends will be accompanying me for mass and stations-of-the-cross with me. Maybe I'll get her to stayover, want her to quit being shy with my mum.

At the end of today, I've come to realise, it's either for something or against something. Neutrality doesn't last.

I tried to pull myself together
One lie tore us apart
We left so many words unspoken
You walked away with my heart

And I cried, I cried
Heaven knows how much I cried
Could you find the strength within you
to give me one more try?

If I called you would you believe what I have to say?
And if I saw you would you turn and walk away?

If I had my way girl
you'd be with me right now
someday, someway, somehow
someday,someway,somehow

I thought I could go on without you
Guess what? - I was so long
And I realize how much I really love you
And it's been far too long

I know you cried, you cried
Heaven knows how much you cried
But can you find the strength within you
to give me one more try?

If I called you would you believe what I have to say?
And if I saw you would you turn and walk away?

If I had my way girl
you'd be with me right now
someday, someway, somehow

So c'mon,
Don't I get my one mistake?
Let's forget about yesterday.
For tommorrow I know we found
What's at the end of the rainbow
And it's meant be, it's meant to be

If I called you would you believe what I have to say?
And if I saw you would you turn and walk away?

If I had my way girl
you'd be with me right now
someday, someway, somehow

-Someday, Someway, Somehow (Brian Mcknight)-

Please stop pouring hot and cold, then being extremely nice to me. It's scaring me how you blow them on and off. One minute you're making plans for Us, next thing you'd prefer being apart. Prove me right bout the things the others proved me wrong. Tell me you'll stay, and stay. Jealousy takes me over whenever you mention your ex-girl, and I do feel hurt whenever you spurt mean words to my heart. This is something I don't wish to dwell in for long. I want to tolerate all this hostility, and simply eat it in me, I won't live on it like I used to, and make anyone else upset. Maybe you don't have a clue how much you mean to me, but I'm empty whenever you're not right here with me. It's the good things that you say that I keep into heart, and it's the rubbish you spout most of the time that usually stings, then gets dumped aside. Don't let the book of history open up and be written once again. I don't want anymore sleazy promises.

As so it has been said, let it be done.

I don't understand why
See it's burning me to hold onto this
I know this is something I gotta do
But that don't mean I want to
What I'm trying to say is that I-love-you I just
I feel like this is coming to an end
And its better for me to let it go now than hold on and hurt you
I gotta let it burn

It's gonna burn for me to say this
But it's comin from my heart
It's been a long time coming
But we done been fell apart
Really wanna work this out
But I don't think you're gonna change
I do but you don't
Think it's best we go our separate ways
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I'm hurting baby, I ain't happy baby
Plus theres so many other things I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it burn

When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Sendin' pages I ain't supposed to
Got somebody here but I want you
Cause the feelin ain't the same find myself
Callin' her your name
Ladies tell me do you understand?
Now all my fellas do you feel my pain?
It's the way I feel
I know I made a mistake
Now it's too late
I know she ain't comin back
What I gotta do now
To get my shorty back
Ooo ooo ooo ooooh
Man I don't know what I'm gonna do
Without my booo
You've been gone for too long
It's been fifty-leven days, um-teen hours
Imma be burnin' till you return (let it burn)

When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn (let it burn, let it burn, you gon'learn)
Let it burn (gotta let it burn)
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know its best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry
I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry
So many days, so many hours
I'm still burnin' till you return

When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

-Burn (Usher)-

This sucks, mother's gossiping about me to her friend, and it's so fucking blasting in my ear(what she's saying). Why not just tell it to my face instead? I just realised my mother's a huge loser, major. And so, my alternative schedule for today will be, either to go pick her up from work, or just rot at home. The throat hurts like a ball stuck at the tonsils. And as usual, I've run out of clothes to wear to go out. But anyhow, I'll still decide to go out anyway. Doesn't mean much for me to stay at home. Oh, wait til I'm 21. Right. I'm off to pick her up from work then, nothing else to do anyway. I'm just keeping mum till she's gone over the limit, and it'll be soon, just yall watch, I'll blow my hat off this woman. Stupid straight people. I can't seem to figure straight people, including the mother and whoever-else.

If it bothers you that I don't have a fucking 'conscience', go search for yours then. You and your friends can go yak your life away, and claim you're carrying out God's work. Give me a break. And if it pleases you so, I hate you. There's noone I haven't hated before, and you're always the usual case. God god god, where the fuck is he? Having tea up there? Chilling out with all his yankies? I don't see Him, and you've never seen him in your 10 years of devout faith. So, need I say more?

Finally a day of rest at home. Else it'd just be going to pick her up from work. Frankly, I've been at suntec almost everyday, and frankly, I'm not close to getting sick of being there to pick her up. My feet's still suffering from the post-heels-syndrome. There aren't any blisters but they're just aching, and with them aching the way they are, I can't work out properly. Just imagine that. Mum just handed me a sum of money to go shop, so that'll be what I'll do once I have the time to. "Nar, give you this $20. Go shop and top up the rest of the money if you buy more things". That's the sum of money.

Grunts.

I've been tied down by appointments, pick-ups, and shopping outings. Hitting the beach this Thursday. Have to boggle my mind on what to wear, all over again. Baby's working 12 to 8 today. Change of schedule for her. She's been my alarm clock of late. Gonna pick her up from work tomorrow again. It's holy week and I'm off to church in awhile for mass. Mum insisted that I attended mass since I'm this free.

I miss you baby!

Wore heels out today, now the feet feels as light as a feather without that ding-a-ling weight. Went down to PS to watch movie (Taking Lives), and oh boy the movie was good, so mind-capturing. It's just entertaining; 3 stars rated for it (by me!) After waiting like an hour to meet some bitch, we headed for Pasir Ris to meet her instead, just to get a fucking card. Bah-humbug, to hell with her. She broke down when she saw her with another gal. Silly. Took 403 down to the beach from the interchange.

Tomorrow will be shopping day (I hope), if I can persuade the mother. It's just going out non-stop till poly commences.

Love me my golden ass please. Stop invading into my blog, I set the password so that you would just steer clear and get the drift, but you're so persistent. It was love we once had, I was sure of what I felt for you til things got out of hand. I waited like a fool for you to be back to get to me everyday, but you simply went out with your friends without realising my wanting/needing for you to be here to at least sort out a bit of communication gap we were having. I admit I never told you that, but the hints were sufficient to sum up to any direct speech. What goes around, come around. Indeed, the saying speaks a million words. I didn't promise you forever, although I promised you never-to-leaves. It's my fault, for not being able to communicate nicely with you. Maybe it was just a love that went wrong, or perhaps, you trusted me THIS much to spout out that I never loved you. But nevertheless, thank you for everything we once had, the friendship to love, then the love to friendship.

Gonna get my nails cut, piano lessons' later. Keep waking up late lately. I hope school doesn't start too soon for me. I'm hoping to go work a little before I start work, the enrolment packages are out.