Last night too tired to blog out EMDD details so here I am doing so now.
Everybody looked glam and made up.
BF Anju and I met up first after me and BF ate at delifrance.
Everyone looked great when the whole gang arrived.
The performances were great,
Peline especially looked so good dancing.
4/1 basically rawked the place down.
The video clip on 4/1 was so cute.
Peline and Mairah did us proud! =)!
After that we had a break interval of 25 minutes,
Which we spent taking tons of photos.
Took pictures with almost everyone I knew there I think.
4/1 took so many photos.
So much class spirit this year which is good since it's our last year.
After the end of the whole drama night event - more pictures.
Oh my god man took like so many.
Flashes were blinding everyone especially my camera with the 4-flashes-for-one-shot.
Somehow we made Mabel feel out of place when we did the 4/1 shot.
But Beng Li also took with us.
But overall damn fun la.
Best friend stayed over at my place last night after we got home at 1+am.
Now she's doing emath revision I think with the help of the TYS.
She asked me to download this song by Wang Xin Ling.
Im telling you it sounds horrible.
No voice no taste no style no standard.
She's singing in the background right now.
OH YA!
Yest while waiting for CCH and Anju I went to the ladies and did my make up and etc..
And I left my hp there?
Luckily when I called the hp later the woman picked up and met me at GG5 to return it to me,
Eternally grateful to her =)
And...
There was this man doing surveys at the MRT station's escalator,
He came up to me and was asking 'How much personal savings do you have?'
I was like ' Hello?? I'm only 16.'
He got so embarrassed and said 'Ok.'
Then I walked away.
How amusing I look like a working woman dressing in that formal halter and skirt and heels with make-up?
Sadded.
Got loads of stares from everyone in the public due to the way I was dressing.
After the whole night,
Before I slept,
Something last night was missing somehow,
Got to thinking of Marion then.
Wish she was here to watch the play with us,
To take loads of pics with us,
To be enjoying the night together with us.
Miss you gal.
I found the pieces in my hand
They were always there
It just took some time for me to understand
You gave me words I just can't say
So if nothing else
I'll just hold on while you drift away
Cause everything you wanted me to hide
Is everything that makes me feel alive
The cities grow the rivers flow
Where you are I'll never know
But I'm still here
If you were right and I was wrong
Why are you the one who's gone
And I'm still here
I'm still here
You've seen the ashes in my heart
You smile the widest when I cry inside and my insides blow apart
I try to wear another face
Just to make you proud
Just to make you put me in my place
But everything you wanted from me
Is everything that I could never be
Maybe tonight it's gonna be alright
I will get better
Maybe today it's gonna be okay
I will remember
I held the pieces of my soul
I was shattered
And I wanted you to come and make me whole
Then I saw you yesterday
But you didn't notice
You just walked away
Cause everything you wanted me to hide
Is everything that makes me feel alive
The lights go out the bridges burn
Once you go you can't return
But I'm still here
Remember how you used to say
I'd be the one to run away
But I'm still here
I'm still here
What a fucking bitch she is.
You know who you are.
Stop hesitating to point e finger to yourself.
Acting like a friend now.
Low down petty revengeful slut.
Fuck e hell outta my life PLEASE.
If you are trying to break me and her up,
Give it up slut.
Are you happy we almost broke cause of you?
Fuck u.
Thanks for FUCKING hurting me again alright?
You never really loved her enough to care much for her you slut.
Ret if you read this you may hate me,
I won't say anything to hold you back cause she is your good friend.
I feel it.
I'm not that feelingless.
YOU said that if she were to leave me then she doesnt deserve me.
Stop changing your stories.
They never tallied.
Best friend came over today.
Think she had fun listening to my momma's stories.
Mom helped her with her eyebrows and hair as well.
Alot of people complimented that it was nice.
After that went shopping for at least 3 hours with her.
Bought earrings body-glitter bangles and film.
Had a beautifully happy day,
Until it was all almost over between me and Her.
Fucking hurts that I'm feeling almost lost within myself now.
I can't lose you.
Not ever?
Dear if you see this,
Go see our blog as well k?
Had clay fight with Chuwen Anjules and Krys today during Art.
Anju and I were bullying Chups.
Stellia ganged up with us to bully her.
Then later we had Ding ding dang dang dong dong quizzes.
Anjules accidentally set her chair on my toesies,
But they didn't hurt.
I finally got my top!!!!
Bought from Li Lao Shi's shop.
A halter like formal top,
2 pairs of contact lenses costing me $2 a pair,
AND.......
Friendship day's presents!!
Jeff promised me at least 5 photo shots with her.
Hopefully I'm meeting Di on that day to go the theatre.
Went out with Wanping today.
Can say that today has been quite entertaining after school.
Not going school on tues wed and thurs.
All planned out perfectly.
So...
Will it be EP or clubbing?
Will feel very extra at EP I think.
I don't even know what the plan is and yet it is going on.
All the couples there,
And some with their cliques,
Me?
Maybe with Anjula or noone?
Glad to have gotten your call after a long day today dear.
Missed you while talking to you on the phone just now.
Have fun tomorrow with your long lost friend k?
I won't mind =)
Joannca's coming over soon.
Did tuition homework since 2 weeks ago and she's only coming over today.
Pretty excited about wednesday and friday.
Firstly wednesday is the long-awaited for EMDD!
Haven't shopped for it though.
Going shopping with wanping tomorrow hopefully
-crosses fingers-
Secondly Friday's KC friendship day.
My last ever friendship day in KC.
Gonna shop like hell for all my darlings in school.
Decided to pon school on tues and wed.
How 'well' planned
Lemme do a count ;
12 weeks to O levels,
10 days to Our first month anniversary,
3 more days to EMDD,
5 more days to Kc friendship day.
And haven't got a clue how many days to prelims.
About a month I think -shrugs-
Dear I miss you.
Wonder what day I'll be seeing you again this week.
Sorry for making you feel the way you felt last night.
I love you~
*huggles*
*you're my sunshine
[In the afternoon] -
Nothing much today.
Today's more neutral than yesterday,
Neutral to the extent of feeling bored.
Soft drizzles on and off today,
Nice weather to day dream and stone.
Slacking at home when I'm supposed to be frantically rushing through my dress colour schemes.
Was looking at the picture that I borrowed of halloween party in sec 2.
I miss #10.
We never said good byes but it was an unspoken recognition.
It was goodbye,
Till we meet again.
[Later in the evening]
Brought baby to bedok resevoir to jalan.
She chewed on a toad and started foaming from the mouth.
Later she started pukin so bad.
My sister found it so amusing that the situation became so bad that she couldn't stop laughing,
Although I didn't find it a single bit funny.
Now,
Luckily for me she's resting comfortably in my arms,
Perfectly fine.
Conclusion today ; No more toads for baby ever in her life.
Watched Alex & Emma today,
Not nice.
Read wanping's blog,
Haiz didn't know I was tormenting her this way.
Feeling guilty...
Went town today to shop actually,
But dear was this late and delay dalee till I didn't have any spare time to shop.
Ret Jinga and Di went for their Threading session today.
Ret and Di cried painfullly man.
Quite a neutral day today.
Today 4/1 brought ALOT of photos.
And class photos were out today and ready for orders.
The formal one looked nice,
The rest sucked cause I looked bad!
But it's just for the fun it I guess =)
Today's basically slack day in school.
30 weeks more to O level examinations.
-quivers-
||Neoprint of me and Dear || Modified picture of me and Marion ||
Alrite think yesterday's underlined part of the post was hurtfully harsh.
Let my emotions run me wild.
Thought we were slightly better off than yesternight and then...
I saw your blog again.
Ok so you have better friends out there,
So you have friends who will be there for you whether you are right or wrong.
Go then.
You said you didn't want to end up like you and Marion.
Can you help it?
Did you feel the awkwardness we felt when we tried speaking to each other today?
You were a good friend and will always be.
And I truly hope we will be the Friends we were before.
But you saw friendship in others,
Not in me.
I pray that hopefully things will better in the next few days.
To #34 : I don't know why you promise when you can never keep them.
Yes duh I get jealous when you did what you did last night.
Are you insensitive or am I insensitive?
Jullie passed on today.
Friggin' car.
I curse you you asshole whoever you are.
She just laid there lifelessly at the pavement with her blood stained on the pavement.
Life's cruelty.
But I'm sure she's happier wherever she is now.
Hey yeah I'm pointing out to You!
What makes you think you're a perfect friend and I should actually look up to you as an example of a good friend?
Do I nod my head to YOU two timing someone who loves you and someone whom you Claim you love?
Come on Jinyu..
A true friend,
Are you even one?
You come and go as and when you like.
I've hurt you upteen times?
Haven't You?
You've made me search my soul SO many times but have YOU searched yours?
You overestimate yourself gal.
Thinking that the whole world would be hard up for you.
You're missing out on loads of facts in life.
You started the war.
Now no matter what whoever's gonna do this war WILL prolong.
Thanks alot 'Friend'.
And..
Shouldn't She have the right to know the mess you've created outside?
You did her wrong,
I did her wrong.
Admit it..
I'm partially at fault,
But stop being a friggin' childish senseless lamer by acting as the Angel Friend.
You're not.
To my sista June : You promised! THURS!
Look into my eyes
You will see
All you mean to me
Search your heart
Search your soul
When you're finally there you'll search no more
Don't tell me it's not worth trying for
You can't tell me it's not worth dying for
You know it's true
Everything I do
I do it for You
Look into my heart
You will find
There's nothing there to hide
Take me as I am
Take my life
I would give it all I would sacrifice
Don't tell me it's not worth fighting for
I can't help it there's nothing I want more
Yeah know it's true
Everything I do
I do it for you
There's no love
Like your love
And no other
Could give more love
There's nowhere
Unless you're there
All the time
All the way
Don't tell me it's not worth trying for
I can't help it there's nothing I want more
I would fight for you
I'd lie for you
Walk the wire for you
Yeah I'd die for you
Yeah know it's true
Everything I do
I do it for you
Didn't go school today.
Refuse to run 2.4km for nothing.
Tuition homework's helluva lot to finish.
Slept late last night though was tired.
But couldn't get to sleep cause was anxious to get e reply from her.
Anjula told me about her having this strong feeling that majority of Us would turn the straight path eventually,
All except her.
Baby wanted to get into Dad's car so bad she was crying at the carpark.
She's just too adorably lovable and irresistable to love.
It is these little things which adds to one's life's history book.
These things which remain in your memories vividly for the rest of your life.
I'm referring to my dog in the last four lines by the way in case you didn't know.
Once again I decided to invade into Wanping's blog.
Didn't know she was this sentimental.
Wondering why we never worked out.
But I am happy where I stand now,
So the guilt in me will just have to be imprisoned in me like unbrushable crimes.
Listening to some songs can sure make you darn emotional and sentimental (aw man i love bryan adams!)
Uncontrollably the memories come rushing into your mind.
And you end up unable to stop thinking of the things you have and haven't done in life,
The regrets the pain the joy the happiness,
Everything.
I lay on my bed
Thinking of the words you said
My life saw light
Knowing you were by my side
You told me you felt down
Wished I could be there to rest on my hands gently on yours
And tell you everything was alright
For all the wishes I have made for you
I wish for you to be happy
Loving anyone isn't easy
But these hard moments pulled through would make us stronger than before
Every moment with you
I wish could be eternity
Let's not wait for loving
Let it come
Please forgive me
For I onced judged you for what you were
Believe in me
I'll stand by your side no matter what you do
Every word I say is true
And I truly truly love You =)
It still feels like our first night together
Feels like the first kiss
It's getting better baby
No one can better this
Still holding on
You're still the one
First time our eyes met
Same feeling I get
Only feels much stronger
I wanna love you longer
Do you still turn the fire on?
So if you're feeling lonely, don't
You're the only one I'll ever want
I only want to make it go
So if I love you a little more than I should ...
Please forgive me, I know not what I do
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you
Don't deny me, this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me, if I need you like I do
Please believe me (Oh believe it), every word I say is true
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you
Still feels like our best times are together
Feels like the first touch
Still getting closer baby
Can't get closer enough
Still holding on
You're still number one
I remember the smell of your skin
I remember everything
I remember all the moves
I remember you yeah
I remember the nights, you know I still do
So if you're feeling lonely, don't
You're the only one I'll ever want
I only want to make it go
So if I love you a little more than I should ...
Please forgive me, I know not what I do
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you
Don't deny me, this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me, if I need you like I do
Please believe me, every word I say is true
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you
The one thing I'm sure of
Is the way we make love
The one thing I depend on
Is for us to stay strong
With every word and every breath I'm praying
That's why I'm saying
Please forgive me, I know not what I do
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you
Don't deny me, this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me, if I need you like I do
Babe believe it, every word I say is true
Please forgive me, if I can't stop loving you
No, believe, I don't know what I do
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you
I can't stop ... loving you ...
Got blisters from new shoe today.
Apparently my feet are sized 6 already.
Went shopping with over twenty bucks,
Before I even begun shopping I'm left with 4 bucks.
Good lordy!
Loving you knocked my senses awake.
Now I'm afraid to ever lose You.
It isn't happening now,
But I'm fearful.
You make my heart melt,
You make my knees go weak,
You turn me all gaga,
Nothing's ever perfect but at least I know we're trying for perfection.
All that matters now is that I have You,
And that You have me.
**_It's not in the loving, it's in the giving
Loads of homework to rush through.
Defied Wanping and read her blog.
Feeling guilty...
Trying to figure out what went wrong between us in the past but couldn't find anything that actually flawed.
Last night wasn't pleasant at all either.
Dear smsed me late the night before telling me things I never expected to hear from her.
She thought about her past and her most recent past - 81.
Girl it tore me apart knowing you weren't sure of whatever you have said since we went together.
No longer am I that cassanova.
We both know what it feels like to cry.
But why are these tears released out of melancholy?
Didn't you promise so much in the letter?
I haven't any idea how many hearts I have broken already,
But yours ain't gonna be one of them.
Trust me kies?
Love you darling *muackiex*
**__you're much better than you think
Finally finished with my O levels paintings.
All four!
Now going on to the interviews : 6 interviews.
Dance Festival at tpjc was fun,
Especially the dancing session after the competition.
Forgot to bring my ticket initially,
Cherie accompanied me home to get it.
Thanks cherie!
Most of all,
I missed Dear very much.
Sad sad we didn't get to talk so much today cause she's at her family chalet.
To Mabel : I hope you realised that blowing up at your friends and simply saying sorry will NOT be an always thing.
I may have disappointed you,
But stil you needn't blow up at all of them with that same crude msg.
And maybe that temper of yours can be curbed a lil?
Nobody has mattered this much since a long time.
I wanna be the person who will draw a smile from every tear and frown.
I hope you never leave me,
I hope you'll always stay.
For every thought of doubt,
And every thought of insecurity I once had,
No more longer will these feelings stay.
Being with You is living each day without any regrets.
Thank you for all the love I'm getting now.
Thank you for all the joy I'm getting in You.
And most of all Thank You for the love I'm having in You.
We'll never part for now,
But if we do ever one day,
I just wanna let you know,
I'm all about You.
Today 'BONDED' with michele.
Went TM with her and a shared KFC meal.
Mich ate most of e meal
-pouts-
But it was fun.
Stalked Mabes and Ed.
Mich and Mabes met gf.
Mich went on and on about how feminine gf seemed.
Saw numerous famliiar faces around at TM.
Firstly Lisi with her hair cut,
Secondly Keith with his nerdy look.
Got some interesting entertainment news about my sister.
My lil girl is growin up
-beams-
Ooh tmr,
Dance Fest!
Gonna be helluva good time!
Haven't decided what to wear.
Don't think I'll be going school,
Will be at school after school for art I hope.
Dear wrote 2 poems and a short note for me,
And I gave her a lil teddy bear.
Dear if You ever read this,
I love you!
fenix tx - tearjerker
Which of these sad songs are you?
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Very much disheartened upon getting news that Raodah, Rozita and Izyan are disrespectful enough to rummage thru' those things,
The things we've been giving Marion.
How tactless can one get?
All in the name of friendship.
Noone needs friendship with people like you around man.
Swear I would have slapped them right in the face when they came into 4/1 and acting all as if it was their class.
Just because you all have friends from 4/1 don't think you all damn big fucks,
Cause I ain't entertaining your shits.
Stop your fuck before I get hasty.
To Dionne : Don't hate him.
It ain't entirely his fault.
Read retta's blog.
Didn't feel a single bit offended.
Instead I thought that what she mentioned made loads of sense.
It's not fair the way some people remember certain people and not the others.
Life is basically not fair,
How some get it better than others.
How some are remembered more than others.
How some are discriminated.
Every death of a loved one affects each and everyone of us.
It matters whether that certain person is remembered in time to come.
But life still goes on.. Doesnt it?
Ok the exciting part of the week : Class photo taking sessions AND meeting darling tmr AND dance fest at tpjc AND family outing!!
4/1's bringing brushes and paints and palettes and aprons and hats for the informal shot?
Heeeeeeeeeeeex fun!
Family outing this sat.
From 11am to 7pm if possible.
Wiping out the whole of Orchard.
I felt myself sink into nostalgia when I saw gift wrappers and cards I had give you,
Two years ago...
All laid nicely beside your books.
They felt pain,
So did I.
It was the little parts of life that mattered to You so much,
Seeing the little parts of life that made up You,
I froze and unknowingly the tears couldnt stop themselves from falling.
He was there,
I was the first to greet him.
He has changed,
So has everything else.
I wonder if I have appreciated you enough when You were still here.
Guilt and depression tore me apart at that very moment,
I must have been the luckiest person ever to be this treasured by You.
Yes friends forever we are.
You and I.
No words ever written or thought would ever describe how much I'm missing you.
A pain in my heart I felt,
When I saw the once little puppy now turned into a Ownerless adult.
The countless times the word Nostalgia keeps flashing in my mind.
Losing You was the worst downfall tumbled on me.
Would do just anything to have you right by my side,
Embracing each other with all the friendship we've kept inside all along.
Nothing can take this love away.
We were more than just friends,
We were true friends.
You are special.
To me.
It's like a dream.
A dream come true.
True friends.
Me and You.
Tml's Jinger's birthday.
Quite excited.
Today went to get her present.
Gf came to my house today after shopping
She was so frightened of baby.
So cute.
Tml also marks the one year that I'll be without [10] in my life.
Awfully afraid.
There's this queasy feeling in me whenever I think of tml as the One year death anniversary.
I miss you gal.
And love You even more.
[17]and[10]..
Friends forever =)
Neoprints taken this week.
|| Left : Jillian and I || Right : Me and Jinger ||
I can't remember the last time that we kissed goodbye
All our "I love you's" were just not enough to survive
Something your eyes never told me
But it's only now too plain to see
Brilliant disguise when you hold me
And I'm free
I've been thinking and here's what I've come to conclude
Sometimes the distance is more than two people can use
But how could I have known girl
It was time and not space you would need
Darling tonight I could hold you and you would know
But would you believe
There's a light in your eyes that I used to see
There's a place in your heart where I used to be
Was I wrong to assume that you were waiting for me
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me
Cards and phone calls and photograph pictures of you
Constant reminder of all the things you get used to
Is there a chance in hell or heaven
That there's still something here to build on
Or do you just pick up the pieces after they fall
But after all
There's a light in your eyes that I used to see
And a song in the words that you spoke to me
Was I wrong to believe in your melody
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me?
Should I keep on waiting or does love keep on fading away
Fading away
It's been a while since I've seen you so how have you been
Did you get my letter I wrote you, but I did not send
I tried to call your old number
But the voice that I heard on the phone
I recognized but she told me the number was wrong
There's a light in my eyes but it's too bright to see
And a pain in my heart where you used to be
Guess I was wrong to assume that you were waiting here for me
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me?
All that I ever needed laid right in front of my eyes.
It was You.
The One.
Focusing all my affection to You,
I can't find a single reason to be put down.
Love was never indescribable till I had You.
Yes I'll be loving You always.
I'll put aside all my fears,
They will haunt me no more.
Cause you're all that I need.
When I close my eyes,
All that I see is You.
I've finally found everything I've wanted, In You.
I may not love You the way You want me to,
But I'm putting my all into.
And all that I am now,
I thank You.
What a day.
Feeling miserable.
Quite alone the whole day..
Friends.
What are they?
I've quite lost the real meaning of friendship.
But when I think of Marion it somehow makes friendship beautiful beyond description.
By death, we have become friends for eternity.
Thanks Anjula for being with me the whole day.
Baby ran out of house.
Fucking sister was talking on the phone in the hall that she couldn't even see baby run out??
Thanks for making my day better, to Whoever who's trying to screw my day.
*//_if i had everyday, i would take everyday to tell you I Love You
Dcd is PL's Harry Potter.
LOL.
EMDD.
Can hardly wait!
Gonna be so exciting.
KCians dressing to kill.
All looking seductively attractive.
KCians rawk man!
Read Your blog and felt my heart sink.
408, some morse code?
I don't know anything anymore.
Thought things would change.
It's as if you're ashamed of letting others know?
Both the twins died.
Sigh.
Life is this vulnerable.
One minute it's full of chances and hopes,
the next everything is taken away from you.
Cherish what you have.
When life seems hopeless and you were all alone
And no one was there to dry the tear drops from your eyes
When you can't find a single reason left to try
Baby I will
Baby I will
Tell me the secrets that you've locked away
Confide your deepest fears that haunt you everyday
All of the little things nobody else could understand
Baby I will
I will
It's alright
I'll be there
Count on me
Anytime anywhere
I'll show you love
Till the end of my life
When no one else will stand by your side
I will
When all you've counted on comes tumbling down
And there's only emptiness that nothing seems to fill
And when you can't remember how to be strong
Baby I will
I will
It's alright
I'll be there
Count on me
Anytime anywhere
I'll show you love
Till the end of my life
When no one else will stand by your side
I will
When no one else will stand by your side
I will
It's alright
I'll be there
Count on me
Anytime anywhere
I will show you love
Till the end of my life
When no one else will stand by your side
I'll be standing right by your side
I will
Went shopping for clothes.
Bought a top, a shoe and a book.
The sale that is going now is pretty quiet this year.
Close to bumping into Her.
Fate disallowed though.
Girl if You ever read this.
I just wanna tell You I don't want to be the reason for You changing Your mind to turning the right path.
If love isn't a game,
Why are there so many players?
Not true.
Love is and never will be a game where true love is concerned.
Nobody plans who to fall in love with.
If so,
It isn't Love after all.
Coincidence and initiativity binds together the gaps of two totally different people.
Confession has brought me guilt.
Can these 3 little words possibly mean anything when you say it to everyone you come across?
Is it possible that these 3 words may also mean the world to another?
Refrained myself from crying.
You gave us 4 months to the most.
And then I had to let You go for good.
Girl it's hard.
Especially when I haven't got a clue what the future holds for me.
I just want to always be here with You.
Fate hasn't given us much good times.
I'm afraid of saying the wrong things which will lead me to losing You.
Deep down You know that my heart is crying for You.
I've been looking for love in every possible place,
And found it at You.
***If I stayed if You tried if we could only turn back time
I don't want The date to come,
The day where my world would come crashing down on me again.
Up till today,
Haven't gotten a clue if I gotten over reality.
I still love You more than I can say.
Precious as she may be,
She's gone forever.
I guess this is another road closer to her.
Love,
Can be expressed easily and readily,
Yet it can be difficult.
An emotion felt by everyone alive,
Unbrushable rush of desires.
A skill.
Emotions,
Strange tingles and expressions felt by the heart.
Mild to extreme.
Eternity,
Love exists in that.
Destiny,
We create our own,
And yet it is as uncontrollable as tears.
Fate,
That is not planned by God either,
Beings change it.
Hurt,
When You lose someone You love.
Complacency,
Not knowing what you have until you've lost it,
Constantly taking things and people around you forgranted.
Joy,
When love is returned,
Or even when people around you are happy.
Helpless,
When the things you do cannot change situations.
Dreams,
Fantasies people attempt to mould into reality.
And finally,
You,
Someone who means everything to me.
For now and always.
Iris
And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest thing to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
Have been busy,
Just to not think of You.
Wonder if You know I'm here.
If You looked into me and saw what was going on inside,
Would You even care.
The memories are here to keep.
The future lies in us deep.
Questioned God once why You were the way You are.
I have never gotten the answer so far.
Wonder if You'll ever pick me,
As I have picked You,
To love for the rest of my existence.
Smile,
You would have said.
You gave me your blessing for Her,
Not knowing You are her.
///Loving you for all of my life
Chinese orals are finally over.
Wheehee!
Tomorrow will be better - Art.
Hey Girl I think I'm addicted to You.
You yes YOU.
Think You should know who You are.
Can't brush You off my thoughts.
I'm so glad You are in my life.
In love with You.
Hopefully You will read this and understand I mean it.
If I had the chance,
I'd show You that You mean soooo much to me.
Wanna shout to the whole world that I Love You.
Please don't ever doubt.
Looking forward to talk to You but You were never there.
Oooh today is a wonderful delightful day~
Everyone is online.
So is She.
Exilherated to know she is here.
Merrily merrily merrily,
Life is but a dream.
Gurl I'm having a lil more confidence today to really tell You from my heart I Love You.
Can't wait till Friday and Saturday.
[Friday] Art till 8pm and after that comes dinner with the gang.
[Saturday] Movie!
Damn it.
Tomorrow is chinese orals.
Will my tongue get caught halfway and will I start stammering?
Had a pretty good chat with Dcd today.
The D.C.D.
The gal who is always here for me.
Love You gal.
To all pals who were always there for me,
Best friend Jinger Anju Lerler,
Thank you.
-Smiles-
Can YOU tell me straight in the face if what I'm feeling isn't real?
Have no idea where I'm heading towards now.
Please tell me?
