Visual literacy went on extremely smoothly for me today. I was complimented for my effort in the work, although it wasn't as good as it can be. But I'm glad I did apply all the techniques she adviced me to use on this final painting. After vislit, everyone stormed to the studios. I saw that someone once I stepped my foot into the studio, and I wish I hadn't. It was such a confusing rite; a rite I had to undergo everytime I see him. Cruelty; what it's doing to me. Everyday I hear new stories and rumours about you and someone new. Well guess what, today will be the day I'm going to halt this torture process. Anyway, Pris and I decided to join the guys at KTV Katong, so we took a bus down to parkway. Kelvin, Larry, Bon, 'Flower', Sean, Phoebe, Eugene and Roy were all present. We sang our lungs out for approximately 4 hours. After bawling our vocals, we dined at the famous Katong Laksa's. Damn. Long time since I last had that. The guys decided to play pool after dinner, so we headed to parkway building for it. Pris and I were out of the game though. Larry and Bon were having cannot-blink competitions. Larry controlled his eyelids til he teared. It's a hilarious sight, seriously. All of them are equally cranky; something I didn't expect to ever see in them but I did, and I'm glad I did. Right now, all I can think of is the disappointment I'm experiencing, all credits to him, for being the insensitive person he is. I was compelled by my pride, dignity and integrity to break it to him that I was 'giving up on him'. Despite everything I've said and attempted to do, I'm still back to square one, where I came from and where I tried to leave from. I still miss him.

Multimedia lessons went on perfectly fine, although I truly need to get started on my webpage designing. First I'll need dreamweaver, fireworks, freehand, photoshop, imageready all downloaded into my computer. We did simple animated gifs today, it was pretty fresh and fun. Basic video was alright too, we've finally decided on ideas for our final video. We agreed on ZiQian's storyboard.

After all the lectures, we hung out at studio, over at Phoebe's side, with Larry, Bon, Sean, Flower, Pris and Dana. They were playing this card game, with super dreary standard forfeits. But it was fun being around those people. Today was so entertaining that those stupid thoughts weren't available to harbour. Thank you everyone who was with me today. It doesn't get much better than this, does it?

I think I'm falling into a bottomless pit, all over again. You're around, even though not physically, and yet I'm finding that I'm unable to breathe, and I'm going through these raging adrenaline rushes. The rushes get so rapid that at the end of the whole adrenaline journey, I'm left lethargic and I can't do much but to cry. The unsoothable pain is terribly annoying; I can't brush it off, and inside me it's hollering for ease. This afternoon I tried to dissolve my thoughts in craziness; I had a run in the rain, a run to nowhere I'd seen before. I felt beautiful looking ugly. Noone was there to witness me cry, noone was there to hurt me. I was my own witness to my pain. It's pretty embarrassing knowing I'm ashamed of my own fall. The ease from every raindrop immersed into my thoughts, and all the negativity just vanished instantly. I was crying out loud for something I'd never thought I'd cry out for. I was feeling pain which I never thought I'd feel for. I tried shouting aloud just to release every burden I'm bearing, or so I think I am, but the words got lost in my cries, like they always do. It was sheer stupidity, taking walks in the rain to wash my thoughts off someone, and returning home feeling all washed out. The whole irony of the situation.

You'll be fine very soon, Cheryl.

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved

Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Try so hard to say goodbye

-She Will Be Loved (Maroon 5)-

If only the raindrops that descended on my face were your lips. I don't know why I'm envious of every girl that's ever gotten close to you, although you and I were once closer than that. Others would count me lucky, but I want to be luckier than anyone other girl. This feels like a reincarnation of Me; I've never felt so clear about feeling this strongly towards someone, without that someone feeling the same way about me. I sat outside, at the corridor, pondering hard, setting my thoughts deeply on you. Prince, if only you knew.

And so I'll be heading to my new-made porch outside my house, seated on the old-raggard couch, attempting to focus on the assignment that's due tomorrow, instead of shifting my thoughts to you like always. I will have my dog beside me intentively watching every movement I make, as if smitten with me. She will be my new forever-companion. But I wish it was you instead. I miss you as much as I miss the feeling of you smiling or even laughing at my every move. I need you as much as I need the sun to rise every morning so that I'll be seeing you at school. I will grow to love you as much as I love the thought of other girls envying me having you.

But the first cut will always be the deepest. You are my first cut.

You're always in my heart,
Always on my mind,
No matter how deep the water,
You, I always find.
My memories are darkening,
You're getting more unclear,
I've fallen into a tunnel,
But I am not to fear.
Very soon we'll be as one,
Together as we once had been,
Filling our memory boxes,
For another year of being unseen

List of projects and assignments to be accomplished
1. Storytelling ideas; come up with a story
2. Basic video idea and storyboard
3. Webpage design; just come up with design and rollovers and utilise slicing and swapover tools
4. Visual literacy's Jack&Jill colour schemes and final product
5. Come up with ideas for STOTE project01
6. Research sounds for audio essentials project01

Damn, this is how much work I have installed for me from now til Week 14. And what's worse is, there's more to come, much more as a matter of fact. Jyren called to ask me out, but I just didn't felt like seeing her, and I don't think I'm ready to face her. She's just a page in my history book that I can't wait to rip off. I saw him today at school, but he displayed no response of any kind when he saw me, although he told me he was jealous when some guy came over to hug-cum-greet me. That brightened my entire day, and I miss him, as always. Time and time again, I keep losing everything, but yet, those changes keep me sane, as long as I find him around somewhere. He doesn't necessarily have to be right beside me; I just need to catch glimpses of him. Just setting my eyes on him makes me fall all over again each and every time. I find perfection in imperfection. Now, does that make any sense?

Dana and Priscelia stayed over last night at my place, and we slept around 3am. I haven't really caught much sleep so far so I suppose I'll be turning into bed pretty early tonight. I'm in charge of bringing to school Nelson's group's video camera. Initial arrangements were to meet Freddy to go to his church's drama put-up, but Dana insisted on meeting Delvin, this guy she assumed was hot, but turned out to be not. He and his friends were equally bastards in typical ways of guys. I did practical shopping today; trucker cap, a pair of heels, and a belt, all for $20.90. Quite a deal, ain't it? Thanks Dana and Leftie for accompanying me the entire 2 days yesterday and today. I missed him the entire day, and I'm still missing him, but I'm definite that he'd never understand that simple bit, and that I'm in this whole chaos alone.

A few questions that I need to know
How you could ever hurt me so
I need to know what I've done wrong
And how long it's been going on
Was it that I never paid enough attention
Or did I not give enough affection
Not only will your answers keep me sane
But I'll know never to make the same mistake again
You can tell me to my face
Or even on the phone
You can write it in a letter
Either way I've have to know
Did I never treat you right
Did I always start the fight
Either way I'm going out of my mind
All the answers to my questions I have to find

My head's spinning
Boy, I'm in a daze
I feel isolated
Don't wanna communicate
I take a shower
I will scour
I will roam
Find peace of mind
The happy mind
I once owned, yeah

Flexing vocabulary runs right through me
The alphabet runs right from A to Zee
Conversations, hesitations in my mind
You got my conscience asking questions that I can't find
I'm not crazy
I'm sure I ain't done nothin' wrong, no
I'm just waiting
Cos I heard that this feeling won't last that long

Never ever have I ever felt so low
When you gonna take me out of this black hole
Never ever have I ever felt so sad
The way I'm feeling, yeah, you got me feeling really bad
Never ever have I had to find
I've had to dig a way to find my own piece of mind
I've never ever had my conscience to fight
The way I'm feeling, yeah, it just don't feel right

I'll keep searching
Deep within my soul
For all the answers
Don't wanna hurt no more
I need peace
Got to feel at ease
Need to be free from pain
Go insane
My heart aches, yeah

Sometimes vocabulary runs through my head
The alphabet runs right from A to Zed
Conversations, hesitations in my mind
You got my concience asking questions that I can't find
I'm not crazy
I'm sure I ain't done nothing wrong
Now I'm just waiting
Cos I heard that this feeling won't last that long

You can tell me to my face
You can tell me on the phone
You can write it in a letter, babe
Cos I really need to know

-Never Ever (All Saints)-

Roar. I'm at school's multimedia lab, again. And I've decided to blog whilst waiting for Dana to be done with her C&E project. Oh yes. I got to see him today. He was in the previous lecture before mine, on the same day and in the same lecture room. He looked so good; he looks good all the time. There was supposedly califare-outing later, but it has been cancelled due to unforeseen circumstances. The Mac I'm using is equipped with so many music tracks. Oh wee! I'm listening to Never Ever by All Saints. Darn good song. Leftie's sleeping beside me.

Visual Literacy lecture wasn't as bad as what I'd imagined it to turn out to be. Nervousness did take over me this morning, not to mention the whole of last night too. He asked me out, but he turned out arranging other appointments while I was waiting for him at the studio. Jared was pretty worried, but I think he got over it after awhile. I'm currently at the multimedia lab to utilise the internet. Kelvin, Larry and gang's on their way to Jurong to swim. Larry did some things to embarrass the blushes out of me. I shall not mention what he did though. Pris is beside me typing out an email, and He is online, but I'm not going to succumb to temptation and speak to him. Neither am I going to reply him. That's how hard I'm going to play from now on. Dharni arranged for us to go pavilion and play pool, so I'm waiting for him to finish his lunch. I'm still disappointed at him. Let's hope I'll get over this infatuated phase; it's getting my emotions the better of me. There's story telling tomorrow and I haven't thought of what to write up for the cards. Tomorrow is califare-day. Pretty exciting life I'm leading now.

I skipped C&E lectures today, and got chased out of Ronald's lecture because I didn't know how to draw a proper drawing of an ice cream cone. Watched the seniors have their soccer matches, and I got to see DZ. Oh boy, he's so cute, he looks darn cute when he's all sweaty. Stayed back at studio to do Jack&Jill project after that. Kelvin was so sweet, he came over to my desk to accompany me. I'm a happy girl today! I love you all.

Good Lord, I've got heaps of projected mountained up on my to-do-list and I've not really finished nor began doing any of them. Last night the torso and hands were chatting about this hot senior student at school. I won't disclose his name nor anything else, but I can assure everyone that he's the ultimatum. But that wasn't the part that got me smiling throughout the night. The vital part of what I'm trying to say about last night is that he felt green and he felt the pinch when I complimented on that senior so well. And I'm happy that he's jealous. I may sound distorted in the mind here, but I'm happy. It's his birthday today so.. Happy birthday prince. I love you.

Hung out with Dharni, Dana and Pris today. Dharni taught me beatboxing and I'm picking it up pretty well!

It hit on me that I have so many potentially good friends out there who will care for me more than any guy will ever do, and they will love me more than any man will ever do. Is there a need to pine for a certain someone, who will eventually end up breaking your heart, when there are many out there waiting to grab the chance to open themselves up to me? Everyone sheds tears for the loss of their loved ones, but if you're unable to get that sort of reaction, does it mean that love was never present in the first place? Sentimenalism is taking me over as I type word by word here, trying to keep myself occupied from harbouring thoughts of even dreams of you. Everything I do seems to be in distraction and disfocus; everything's ablur. I'm still bewildered by the way you held me, and the way you let me go. It's simply too much for anyone to take, let alone me, the emotional basket case. When you seem happy all the time, and when you seem like you're without a worry, people tend to take you for a ride, they take you forgranted. And when they do so, is it time, then, for you to step back and await them to hit onto realisation of your worth? Will everything be unable to retrieve by the time reality hits? I spoke to a friend today that I never thought would open his cards to me and even think of telling me all the littlest important details in his life. He approached me for advice, and I found myself lost at his questions. It was the first time in a long time since I had myself lost of words to what to answer immediately. And even now, after hours later the conversation, I find me asking myself within the answers to those riddles in my life. A couple of friends approached me to assure me that they were there for me regardless of whatever that will happen, and I'm glad for that. But somewhat, something's amiss, something in my life's left out. And I don't know what. I'm no longer looking forward to tomorrows. I'm trying to retain my sanity for as long as I can, but it's pretty difficult so far. All this summarises down to the irony of everyone being here when all I need is you.

And so I'm rooted to my seat here, with a cup of coffee, with mug coaster stained with caffeine, trying to keep awake for as long as I can. I don't want to shut my eyes to another reason to feel dead the next day. And I wish you were here to chat over coffee and keep awake with me, just tonight. I'd be contented.

How could you tell me the things you did when you know that it'd hit me right in the heart? Have you any inkling on how insensitive that whole conversation was? I thought you were different; I thought you weren't typical. Stop toying with me.

Somebody said they saw you
The person you were kissing wasn't me
And I would never ask you
I just kept it to myself

I don't want to know
If you're playin' me
Keep it on the low
Cuz my heart cant take it anymore
And if you're creepin'
Please don't let it show
Oooh baby, I don't want to know

I think about it when I hold you
And lookin' in your eyes I can't believe
I don't need to know the truth
Baby, keep it to yourself

I don't want to know
If you're playin' me
Keep it on the low
Cuz my heart cant take it anymore
And if you're creepin'
Please don't let it show
Oooh baby, I don't want to know

Did he touch you better than me
Did he watch you fall asleep
Say you walk away
Don't talk to me
Ooh don't tell me
If you're better off that way
All that I can say
Stay away from me

I don't even know your
Whereabouts or
how you movin
I know when you in the house
When you cruisin'
It's been provin'
My love you abusin'
I cant understand how a man
Got you choosin
Undecided
I came and provided
My undivided
You came and denied it
Don't even try it
I know when you lyin'
Don't even do that
I know why you cryin'
Im not applyin' no pressure
Just want to let you know
That I don't wan to let you go
And I don't want to let you leave
Cant say I didn't let you breath
Gave you extra cheese
Put you in the SUV
You wanted ice
So I made you freeze
Made you hot
Like the West Indies
Last time you invest in me
Cuz if not then its best you leave
holla

I don't want to know
If you're playin' me
Keep it on the low
Cuz my heart cant take it anymore
And if you're creepin'
Please don't let it show
Oooh baby, I don't want to know
If you're playin' me
Keep it on the low
Cuz my heart cant take it anymore
And if you're creepin'
Please don't let it show
Oooh baby, I don't want to know
If you're playin' me
Keep it on the low
Cuz my heart cant take it anymore
And if you're creepin'
Please don't let it show
Oooh baby, I don't want to know

-Project after project
-Presented colour research and colour vocabulary assignment
-Did audioessential's project (it's a wrap by the way!)
-Am home finally blogging
-Expecting a guest later who's going to stayover
-Going to be planning for stote project
-Going to be planning for bavid project
-Not planning to sleep
-I'm tired
-I miss him

New StoryTelling project up. Another one to add to the already heavy workload I've been getting. Now I have C&E, StoryTelling, AudioEssentials, VisualLiteracy projects lined up for me work on.

The skies look downcast and I'm loving it, it reminds me of the greatest memories in my life. You know, the whole nostalgia flashbacks. And I'm sorry to say, you're not included in those memories. Every single moment that I spend thinking of you is a disappointment. Every tear wept isn't worth the emotion. You and I seem to collide on every incident, situation and disagreement. We clash like fire and water. It's not infinity that I'm wanting from you, it's peace. Just leave me be the way I am now and let me straighten out what I have to straighten out. Be happy for me if you love me. I've given you advise on all that I can, it's ultimately your choice if you want to heed it or not, but I'm redundant from here onwards.

I'm in a spiritual mood today, maybe because it's Marion's 2nd year death anniverary tomorrow. It's Jinyu's birthday tomorrow too. And I'm feeling all uncomfy right throughout me. I've been listening to music that reminds me of her these few weeks, and everytime I do, this particular scene keeps rewinding then playing repeated in my mind - the cruel scene of her being chucked into the oven, with no last words, with no struggle. Death is tragic, yet soul-freeing. I haven't a definite reason to what I'm saying, but I mean what I'm saying. I'm just praying hard that she's been taken to a higher place, with God. In the meanwhile, I'll be working hard for my own soul.

Audio Essentials' project is driving me into sanity. The entire group has so much to accomplish within the next week, and almost everybody is shirking their individual tasks in the project. I'm lost at why they're even in the course. Another project turning me mad will be Visual Literacy; I keep assuming my ideas are lousy, and I end up working on something else that isn't as good as the idea that I decided to put away. The irony of it all pisses me off. I have thus made my final decision that I am going to paint an abstract on a photograph very endeared. Not to leave out, I have Culture&Expressions' project to research on too. Oh boy, am I stressed up. It's been work work and work these days. I don't even have spare time to go out with friends for sheer leisure and relaxation since school started 3 weeks ago. I'm truly apologetic if I have neglected any good friends out there.

Oh yes! I had lunch at Pastamania's today. Food was fantastic! Alright I got to be hitting my projects before I get burned in the arse when I get my results at the end of this semester. Ciaos!

I think I'm crushing on you, not that I really know the definition of crush since I passed on from secondary 2. Today was in the pits, because I myself witnessed girl by girl throw themselves at you, right in front of me.

Apel supposedly was afilled with fun, but I lost it during the second half of the day. I watched her and the other girls get intimate with you, and my mind just detonated. I felt like crying, but I was more concerned about what everyone would think. ARGH, it's too much thinking on my part. Thanks to Left Hand, I felt better, but I felt guilty at the same time for neglecting you just because of my moodswings.

Tomorrow WILL be better, won't it? Anyway, it's a dreadful countdown to Marion's 2nd year death anniversary. It's beginning to get to me...

Jam & Hop freshies party turned out absolutely fabulous! I had a great time, dancing, cheering, and watching performances by break-dancers, and Dharni, and the 4 other schools in TP. Design definitely rocks TP. Jared felt giddy and got into this semi-conscious state, so Pris and I decided to to check outside, and see how he was doing. I sure hope he's alright now. He didn't even give a damn when Pris and I actually bothered to go shower him a bit of our concern. Anyway, we danced a bit, I danced with Jared, Wendy, Audrey, Pris, Ingrid(only a bit), Jeffie (OH I FINALLY SAW HER!), Dharni, some other guys who mistook me for their friends. But I spent most of the time dancing with my date-of-the-day - Jared. Gees he didn't even say a word of goodbye to me at the end of the night, when Kelvin(King of Freshies) did. Jam & Hop was fun fun fun! My vislit presentation went on alright I guess, I rated myself average. Took a bus home with Pris in the end.

Tomorrow's Apel lectures from 830am to 630pm. That's darn long for a lecture. I love school! Ren did call not long ago, and she told me so much shit about she fetching Sham home and all. Don't tell me, tell it to Sham, she might just appreciate it one day. My life's not going to revolve around my other half anymore. Even so, I don't have an other half and I definitely hope you won't be that one. That's because if you actually were, my heart would already die shattered. I rest my case.

I'm fearing of my next relationship turning out like my previous one; drag things on, then the relationship eventually souring. It leaves you in a chaos of numbness, and lethargy. Something's been missed out in my life, but I don't know what and how to conquer that bad feeling I'm getting from it.

DrFun was not as bad as I thought it'd turn out to be. Moses Wong showed up out of the blues for our lectures, and Ronald was sucking up to him. Ronald taught us 2-point perspective; Glenn and I managed to grasp the whole concept this time round. Next week will be 3-point perspective. C&E's project turned out to be a group one, and thank God it is. I'm coughing so terribly til I've almost lost my voice. Going to take a nap first, then getting down to my vislit assignment once I'm up.

OH MY GOD! I just chatted with Kelvin! Oh shit I'm going to melt to death. He's my number 1 eyecandy. Truth is, he's the only eyecandy. Not much of eyecandy is it? It's more of a crush! Thanks to Ingrid! Thank you my darling right-hand!

Jared fell off the chair while Mr PeteSam was giving instructions on the Black-And-While automatic batch. Basic video was boring today. Stanley dozed off during lectures; we were all laughing at Mr Genius. Mr Genius actually fell asleep during lectures. I'm dreading tomorrow's DrFun, only because I don't get the whole concept of 1-point-perspective, and he'll be proceeding to 2-point-perspective. Maybe I should approach someone who's aware to guide me.

I've been coughing, and getting pretty often head spins. I hope I'm not falling sick. I don't want to be missing any lectures. I miss my right hand, my left hand, Jinga, Daryl and KW! Life would never be spiced up without them, they're the reason I'm finally feeling happy and contented with what I have, and where I am =D

So tired, and I still need to meet Justin to pass him his artfriend stuffs. Anyways here are new pics uploads.

SYF School

To You: Even though I may seldom mouth it out or type it out. I wish sometimes we'd understand each other more instead of awaiting each other to hear the other out first. I'm sorry for being selfish. I miss you.

To Daryl: You'll always be the nicest friend I have around. It means so much to me that you're always lurking and hanging around listening to me rant and rave on on my complaints and bitching on life. I love you my littlest bro. I hope you're aware that sister here loves you a million tonnes. We'll meet this Fri or Sun, or even both! Deal?

To Kayposon harnnnnn: I hope you're feeling better after the message and the call (2 in 1). I look forward to our next movie date, and hopefully we won't be watching anymore stupid ulu movies. Stay happy always, cause I'm sure there are people out there who really cares for you, and I hope you know I'm always here for you to bitch on life to. Love ya! Take care okay?

Alrighty. Audio essentials; brand new project taking up 30% of this whole semester's marks. I'll be playing the role of the sound engineer, along with Joe. Wondering how come I'm always bumping into him lately, and being paired up with him. Was late for meeting Priscelia, but she wasn't punctual either. It was raining by the time we were done with lunch. I took 197 (THE WRONG SIDE, MIND YOU) towards boat quay. So naturally I got off that bus and walked all the way to the other side. Reached parkway to meet Dominique just in time - 4pm. Watched him gorge himself with Pastamania's crispy cheesy pasta and we went home after that. The fucking bus number 9 broke down at Simei, so I cabbed back home. Spent so much today. Got to go research for sounds, or else Joe'd literally murder me tomorrow during STOTE.

Was at century square's watching Spiderman2 with KW. It's a rather special date I'd say, unlike the other dates. Justin backed out on us; his matchmaking schemes at work. The movie was rated average, no idea why so many people bought tickets for it. Too much conversations and too little action. Tobey Maguire's cute though. KW didn't speak at all during the movie; as quiet as a mouse. We went dutch. After the movie, saw Blue and 2 of her friends, so just popped over to her side to say hi. Walked to some video shop after that to accompany KW get something for his dad. We took 8 because he wanted to show me where's the bus stop to take to school with that bus. KW and I stay 5 blocks away, all calculated. KW gave me this light stick, don't know why either. Okay. I have to catch up with my assignments. Haven't done a single one over the weekends.

Some people just don't know their limits. One minute they're buddy with you, the next they're stabbing you from the back somewhere, someway. Ought to be ashamed of themselves, terribly.

Suddenly I'm feeling alone. Missing someone that I've made my mind up not to miss. Contradicting, isn't it? Everything's transitioning so quickly that all turns surreal. But these are feelings I could never hide from.

I miss #10 so darn much. I can't find myself in any stable mindset nor physicality since she passed on from my life. Dreading the day in 10 days to come; there's no bigger dread than this. Even after 2 years of her absence, I still find myself bitter, and hating God for everything he's done, although I initially thought my faith was strong and unwavering. I almost forgot the manner she flicks her blackjet wavy hair, the way she talks in that childlike-pampered way, the way she throws her tantrums, the way she wept because I did, and even the way she speaks. The memories of her begin to blur a little, but I always try to preserve them for as long as I'm able to, by looking at photos, reading the emails she had written out in big and small font format. This excruciating pain of the thought of never being able to see someone for the the rest of eternity; the feeling sucks as much as walking an endless tunnel. I'm sure many can relate to what I'm trying to word out. God would help me ease this little bit of loneliness and mourn. But again, if he could, wouldn't he have already done so? And yeap, I miss you Marion, the bestest friend I'll ever have.


Alison Krause - Stay

Where have you been,
My long lost friend?
It's good to see you again.
Come and sit for a while
I've missed your smile
Today the past is goodbye.
Time can't erase
A lover's embrace.
Can't you hear it calling?
A new day dawning
You were longing to find.

Love's taken you far
Away from my heart,
And I've been here all alone.
Have your eyes failed to find
What took you from mine,
A vision that's faded through time?
But you sailed away,
A fine summer's day,
Cause you heard it calling,
A new day dawning,
You were longing to find.

There is a way to make you stay.
Darlin don't turn away
Don't doubt your heart
and keep us apart
I'm right where you are
Stay

There is a way to make you stay.
Darlin don't turn away.
Don't doubt your heart
and keep us apart
I'm right where you are
Stay.

Why do you ask, when you planned the answers to the question? It's terribly annoying, that people keep doing that although they know it's immediate contraversy. How many people you count on are honestly trustworthy? None. None are forever reliable.

You spend half your goddamn life gossipping about people whom you hardly even understand, and it's irritating. You've been complaining from the sundawn till sunset. I hope your mouth drops off!

And to the one I promised I'll be there always for, I will still, just a more distant manner. I can't accept the fact you'll be staying with someone who used to go gaga over you, and still pretend nothing has happened when it all has. Maybe you'll fall for her one day, maybe she'll be the next reason you're believing in love. I'll miss you in the meanwhile, there'll be no other. You never understood what I ever meant, what I meant whenever I initiated such cruel resorts. There's no use verbalising everything when the outcome will still result the same. I love you, I really do, but I don't know how else to handle this whole situation. I'm sorry.

Visual Literacy was alright, nothing much special or extraordinary. Didn't go for the movie with Joe as planned, cause the rest of the class didn't opt to go, so I thought it'd feel weird going with Joe alone. Have got this assignment for VisLit, 4 black boxes within a bigger white box. Scheduled to go Bras Besah with Ingrid and the rest on Monday to buy some materials for this assignment. I don't think I remember many assignments given this week. C&E group survey project, DrFun's one-point perspective finish homework, audio essentials' journal, storey-telling's review and Vislit's review. There you go, not alot to pack my weekends. There's this really cute guy, this one particular guy, my eye-candy, Ingrid and Priscelia knows who.

Tomorrow's towning with Daryl! Long time since I last saw her.

C&E was rather fun, had groupwork, so I got to personally get acquainted with new people. Got to know Lawrence, Jacky, Xiaohui, Lyn, Winnie and Adrianne - my groupmates. Went for lunch at the canteen, waited for awhile for 12noon to arrive, but then Kwang Wei arrived before 12noon did. Justin and KW decided to lunch first without the Triplex group. Good thing we had lunch first though, because the whole group gathering was cancelled eventually. (I hope BoonCheong will get well soon) We walked around the school til KW's time was up. Drawing fundamentals were terrible! I screwed up every bit of it, thanks to Tim, who's sitting right in front of me (he kept fidgeting). That basket. Ronald taught one-point perspective. It sucked. Okays I'm dead beat. Gotta run along to bed now. I miss you.