I miss #10 so darn much. I can't find myself in any stable mindset nor physicality since she passed on from my life. Dreading the day in 10 days to come; there's no bigger dread than this. Even after 2 years of her absence, I still find myself bitter, and hating God for everything he's done, although I initially thought my faith was strong and unwavering. I almost forgot the manner she flicks her blackjet wavy hair, the way she talks in that childlike-pampered way, the way she throws her tantrums, the way she wept because I did, and even the way she speaks. The memories of her begin to blur a little, but I always try to preserve them for as long as I'm able to, by looking at photos, reading the emails she had written out in big and small font format. This excruciating pain of the thought of never being able to see someone for the the rest of eternity; the feeling sucks as much as walking an endless tunnel. I'm sure many can relate to what I'm trying to word out. God would help me ease this little bit of loneliness and mourn. But again, if he could, wouldn't he have already done so? And yeap, I miss you Marion, the bestest friend I'll ever have.


Alison Krause - Stay

Where have you been,
My long lost friend?
It's good to see you again.
Come and sit for a while
I've missed your smile
Today the past is goodbye.
Time can't erase
A lover's embrace.
Can't you hear it calling?
A new day dawning
You were longing to find.

Love's taken you far
Away from my heart,
And I've been here all alone.
Have your eyes failed to find
What took you from mine,
A vision that's faded through time?
But you sailed away,
A fine summer's day,
Cause you heard it calling,
A new day dawning,
You were longing to find.

There is a way to make you stay.
Darlin don't turn away
Don't doubt your heart
and keep us apart
I'm right where you are
Stay

There is a way to make you stay.
Darlin don't turn away.
Don't doubt your heart
and keep us apart
I'm right where you are
Stay.